WELL LIFE IS GOING GREAT.....I JUSTED REALIZED SINCE MY DRAMA WAS ELIMINATED IVE BEEN SO MUCH HAPPIER AND MY BOYFRIEND IS MOSTLY THE CAUSE FOR THAT.....:) WHEN HE LOOKED AT ME TODAY I COULD TELL HE CARED ABOUT ME AND I LOVE IT WHEN HE HOLDS ME CUZ IT MAKES ME FEEL SAFE AND HE TOLD ME I WAS BEAUTIFUL AND THAT JUST MADE ME FORGET ABOUT EVERYTHING GOIN ON RIGHT NOW AND IT MADE ME REALIZE HE REALLY DOES CARE AND IT WAS SOOOOO SWEET......HMMMMMMM HE JUST MAKES ME HAPPY I CANT CONTAIN MY EXCITMENT.....:)SO LIFE IS GOOD AND MY FRIENDS R GREAT AND I LOVE MY FAM. AND I ALSO LOVE MY BOYFRIEND....:)

my boyfriend is so sweet i really do love him.....everytime i see him he makes my day.....anybody readin this may be confused cuz i dissed him in one of my journals but im not mad at him......:) but he is really a great guy and he makes me laugh and he makes me cry and he is just everything i asked God for....and i didnt thank him yesterday but i also want to thnk him because he has always been there for me and he hasnt left and that is so shocking to me cuz i always have ppl leave me but the fact that he cares enough to stay means that he really does love me and guess what i LOVE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!! so today when i c him im gonna give him a big fat kiss and tell him thank you babe......and if my boyfriend does read this I LOVE U BABE...:)

i realized today that God always has a plan for you wheter you believe it or not.....i have been so angry for a long time and today i realized its childish and im not really angry anymore im just going on with my life.......i dont think i could really be angry at anyone i just think im tired of everyone looking at me and sayin to themselves she is so gulable and such a pushover....im finally standing up for myself and that is what im most proud of because that has taken me 16 years to finally accomplish but im doing it....:) i just want everyone to know when life seems like its not going anywhere think again........he always has a plan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so thank you God, and thank you to all my friends: Dannell Kaila Heather Haley Ernie Kyle Amanda Alex Randi Carla Jade Liz Trent Anthony and also a thank you to my madre for always being there for me.... o and to Liz thank you for helping me through my rough times you helped me realize what life is about in a way....and if i havent said thanks im sayin it now....THANK YOU:)you could of have left me alone and not of helped me but u stuck around and did and for that im grateful and you are a true friend no matter what anyone says dont forget that!!!!!!!!

today was awesome...not so much drama cuz the drama was eliminated....anywayz all i have left too say is tht things always happen for a reason so even when it seems lik the wolrd is comin to an end dnt fear cuz everything always works out.....TRUST ME I KNOW

well this girl i hate i officially hate even more she lied to my face bout my bf and now she wants to keep me as a "friend" i dont think so........how come girls who have nothing try to get something but never succeed? hmmm i wonder if maybe wht they strive for they know theyll never get which makes no sense cuz who wants someone or something they can never have? o well another "friend" losted ill move on cuz she was nothing anywayz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

have u ever been in a relationship where the guy ur datin tells his ex gf tht he still likes her and that the only reason he is stayin in the place hes at is bcuz of her....well i have and here is wut i have to say.....to the girl ur just a whore and ur mad cuz u have five chins look lik a peguin and cant get wut u want....to the guy screw u u had me but ur and idiot an lost me so ur bad cuz u cant get me back no matter how much u try think about tht next time u decide to screw someone over......and as for me im and idiot for ever dating a dumbass so shame on me but whtever i can move on but neither of them will have anybody cuz they cant be in a serious relationship.....but i can so while im happy cuz i can move on and fall in love all over again ull be stuck wonderin y u let me go in the first place then ull be unhappy cuz ull finally realize u have nothing to give to someone in the first place besides cheatin and bein a jerk o thts such a good way to a person......but thts ok cuz whores r whores and jackasses are jackasses so stay tht way while im on a date wit a real guy not some stupid ass like you......:)

i hate whores with black hair and blue eyes......they r not the shit so they need to get over themselves.....they r always tryin to come between ppl's relationships cuz they r just lonely and mad cuz they cant get aanybody cuz they aint even cute......stay out of ppl's relationships u aint suceedin anyways so stop the bullshit before i do and thts all i have to say besides get a life and find out who u really r.....:)

there is this girl that keeps coming in my life and ruining things and it is makin me really angry....... i say girls r cruel cuz they always know when they r doin something but do they stop no cuz they want to c u suffer over and over again...... im a girl myself but if i can do it than so can u....i wish this girl would be honest for once in her life and stay out of the way of things........