Currently Playing: Heavenly Answer by Bulletproof Messneger

wow, sorry i havent updated in like five days! then again, my four posts the last time sort of make up for it....

I know that I should let this go, but I just feel like letting it go makes it so much more final. Like, I’m breaking my promise to her. Like letting go of her memory is the same as turning my back on her, when I told her I would always be there.

And I meant it too. Whether she loves it or hates it or wants it, I’ll always be there. Because I promised.


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do you believe in forever? i used to. i used to believe that when you loved someone, when you told them it would last forever, it really would.

i guess thats what growing up is all about, though- realizing that nothing really lasts forever. maybe it sucks, certainly it hurts.

but thats life.

this goes out to rob thomas and all the matchbox 20 guys!!!! look, it doesnt get much better than this all day staring at the ceiling making friends with shadows on my wall all night hearing voices telling me that i should get some sleep because tomorrow might be good for something hold on feeling like im headed for a breakdown and i dont know why but im not crazy im just a little unwell but stay a while and maybe then youll see a different side of me im not crazy im just a little impaired i know right now you dont care but soon enough youre gonna think of me and how i used to be