my thought of this past week has been this..nothing comes easy..with out hope there is no passion. that without love there is no hope and with out passion there is no love..best way i can put it..so hope,love and have passion..this week has been a week that has stoped me from believing in everything that is good and dread the bad that is to only keep coming. (now listening to Boyce avenue-change your mind) i cant imagine that there is a life that is perfect. i just wish that there is something i can do to tell her that im sorry and that iv changed, that there is not this monster that she has come to no but that i have changed, that i have become more than just a monster, a animal, i have become a person that feels her fears and a person that she can relate to..a person who is in love with a girl that is not in love with me. but should i be in love. iv been cheated on and torn apart and i still feel that i should have done better for her. iv been embarrassed and humiliated by her but i still feel that i love her..is it love? or is it this since of banishment that keeps me holding on..whatever it is..i wish i could hold it in my hands and put it in the place it belongs...