chocolate milk is like really good right now. plus, i've been doing some illegal stuff lately o_O not even gonna say it. but fuk it right!!!! it's just some darn rules. you knowwwww (; it's not really that bad anyway, so ya. oh jk. and i've been saying in my head, "i like blankblank" when i really don't. i just think he likes me which creeps me out. ew. not to be mean, but i don't like it when someone likes me and i don't feel the same way. so ya. i keep saying that just to test myself. i don't wanan keep being mean but i hate situations like these )= and another dude too. he's cool but now i'm starting to watch what i say around him. why am i such a ho? jkcakesssss. oh well. "just ebcause they like you doesn't mean you have to like them." yup. i'm just a girl who's always talking about guys.

wow. freakin 6:30 am. woke up at 4 to take a shower so i could finish my essay -_- last night was fun. freakin talking about everything. andrea had to leave at 9 though. walked home, got some starbucks (which i haven't had in over a year). i felt bad though, and bloated x_x i'm never getting any fraps from there again. he's a loner and i just felt bad for him. fack, i wanted to go him and stay with him and let him know i'm always gonna be there. but i guess i ruined it. i hate seeing him like that. he did it to himself though, it's been that way for a long time. he's obviously not doing anything about it, so if he's fine with that then i guess he doesn't really care. i shouldn't either..? shti, he's like my best friend though and everything he told me made me see everything from a totally different perspective. i'll wait it out...