Oh my god, its been an emotionally draining week. I can hardly believe all of the things that have happened lately. I can barely keep it all together. My mind keeps racing a mile a minute and I can't seem to slow it down at all. I am totoally feaked out about getting pulled over. I hate how the legal system works here. This police state is rediculous. .I don't know if I should talk to a lawyer about this or not.

I hate me today. I really hate me today. How can I be so cruel. What the fuck happened to me?

Holy shit I can barely keep my emotions kept within me. I don't understand whats happening to me. These feelings aren't what I want at the moment but they are still trying to come off the surface. I need an outlet. I need this journal. I never realized how much I needed it until now. I had imagined that it would help but I can literally feel the pressure rising off my shoulders as I type. I just wish I had a valid direction to turn and focus my attention to. Which way do I go????

I should be writing a paper right now but instead I'm writing the first entry to my journal. I have never been very good at keeping up with a journal or a blog but I really like this website, so I hope that will help to keep me coming back and writing more. So with that said, lets get started. Current Band: Sunny Day Real Estate Album/s: Diary (How fitting, since I'm starting one!) and How It Feels To Be Something On (Yay Vyvanse!) I hope I can go back and edit this post.. or I'll be pissed!