More thoughts of it everyday. Life just sucks and God still hasn't relly done much. They say helps those who help themselves, maybe thats what I'm missing. I just want this awkward phase to end and a new better life to show up. I'm only 16 so who knows. Still gotta have faith....

Dropping marijuana since bout a month. Who knows might actually make it this time. Red Dead Redemtion is SICKNESS> OWWAAAWAHHAHA Andrew is Stupid shit and old news. Parties are awesome. I made out wit two chicks at the same time and saw some tits. YAY!!! Got a girlfriend then broke up with her in the same day. STILL A VIRGINA.Peace!

What do I think about drugs? Well, heroin and crack and stuff is pretty bad, but pot and LSD and stuff isn't horrible. Look at the 60s -- if that stuff was so bad, our parents wouldn't be here right now.

Can't remember much but I went to school and turned down like 4 chicks. All hell breaks loose and they try to kill me....... End

Christopher Johnson McCandless (February 12, 1968 – mid-August, 1992) was an American wanderer who adopted the name Alexander Supertramp and hiked into the Alaskan wilderness with little food and equipment, hoping to live a period of solitude. Almost four months later, he died of starvation near Denali National Park and Preserve. A true hero. "Into the Wild"

This quote changed my life "So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future."

Ok so this ones kinda short but it actually has more meaning to it. So I start off at Bishop Verot but this time it turns out to be one of those boarding schools. It gets better... it's fucking in like Alaska or like Antartica. So yea I got my own dorm and shit but Im by myself. It starts off with me entering the school starting a new year. Oh, how I hated Bishop Verot and of course its like always. When heading it I see familiar faces but one in particular. One person that wasn't meant to be hear, Cindy. I greet her and I find out what shes doing here. Apparantly Dustin was heading to the school too so she wanted to come and check the place out for herself.. maybe even enroll here. We talk for awhile and I finally leave. Later I find one of my pals from Bishop Verot, EJ. Me and Ej never really got along freshmen year but we were friends in my dream. Then we left for lunch. Lunch was probably the worst part. I could'nt find a place to sit I knew nobody there. Then from across the room I saw Cody with some people. I headed over to talk. After that was settled I went for lunch. Then I looked around and saw my school mates people who I knew but did'nt know me. From across the room I saw Taylour Oney... She glanced at me and just looked away. By now I had just given up. As I got my food I suddenly went blind. There was this bright light I couldn't open my eyes to. So I was somehow able to feel my way to Codys table. We talked for awhile and somehow I fell asleep. LOL falling asleep in a dream. So anyways when I woke up I was by myself. The only person at the table. Peopel were heading out the lunchroom so I went to cause I didn't feel like sitting alone. As I left I was instantly greeted by Cindy. I was happy. She couldn't find Dustin and she wanted me to talk to her and her mom bout going here. So we walked and talked for awhile and things were going really nice til we came to a spot where we saw a penguin in a pool. Me being stuupid told Cindy that I would jump in with the Penguin if...... I never said it. I looked down and it transformed into a sea lion. I never jumped and we left. Finally we were able to track down her mom. I talked to her about Bishop and afterwards she said she would think about it. After that we left for my dorm cause she was leaving soon. We said our goodbye and I hugged her.......................................... End

The dreams skip from point to point with no real cross but its because I woke up alot last night the went back to sleep. Ok so the first dream was with me going to one of my best friends house (Dustin). He had a dog most likely a German Shepherd and for some reason fixed one of my hoodies (this brown one that was kinda ruined awhile ago). I guess it was becuse he lost my iPod awhile ago. Then I guess I decided to go looking for my iPod so I went on this wacky journey where I climbed this mountain and almost fell off. When I got down I had reached a place like some form of the slums. In one of the houses I saw a little boy who recognized me. Then the mother came out and she seemed to know me too. She left and came back with Malcolm (Yes from Malcolm in the Middle). He seemed really angry about something and I totally forgot about my iPod. He then tried to attack me but I was able to hold him off pretty easily. He told me how he needed to get bigger and I told him it was cool to hang at my place to work out. As we headed back to my place I could see all my friends in my room. My room was AMAZING (like nothing my room actually is). I had a personal gym in it and its own kitchen. My pals were hanging around the Flatscreen playing some videogame on a couch that sorta looked like a living room. This part I don't remember much cause it just skipped to nowhere. I ended up in a classroom type situation where Mr. Pino was the teacher only we were at a house. Shit turns to whatever and Pino ends up to be some psycho killer so I get the fuck out. Dad picks me up in a truck with Jack (old favorite dog) in the back. We left to Uncles and me and Doug played some boardgame with my Uncle. Mom picks me up singing and we leave with same truck. The End......

Ok yesterday had this one dream with craziness but.... was way to lazy to write it down so forgot all about it so new plan. Jot down important parts in notes of iPhone then write them down later in journal. Thats wassup

Ok just started but Im really just reviewing on what I already dreamed...... ok do'nt remember much but I do remember that i was in a taping a porno at my great uncles at this one beach.Wierd right then I remember kicking this kid Tonys ass. He was this jackass at my school who needs a beating lol