It seems that dreams is only where I can find peace. When you're asleep you don't even know your out. You don't know whether your dead or alive. I feel like maybe when you die all that happens is that you dream. Maybe there is a heaven or hell. Maybe there is such a thing as a second life. Maybe when you work hard and put forth an effort to do the good in the world you getting rewarded when you die. I would like to think that. Sometimes I feel like Im the only person who actually isn't a total douchebag. Maybe I actually am, from what my brother says. Idk but I want to try and become a better person...

More thoughts of it everyday. Life just sucks and God still hasn't relly done much. They say helps those who help themselves, maybe thats what I'm missing. I just want this awkward phase to end and a new better life to show up. I'm only 16 so who knows. Still gotta have faith....