many days have passed, but i'm still a bit crazy and very rude. my apathy is kill me, I want to sing as I sang before.
I need communication, and present state of affairs doesn't saticfiy me.
oh this stupid, cruel, confused world.
It was a perfect day... I had a dream at night: marvelous warm of somebody I love and who love me...
That was just dream.
I wish him luck. and trying not to hate him. I'm so naive... I'll never learn anything.
oh hell, it's just like soap opera with confused girl (not me), who loves two boys equally, and with another girl, who tries to be her friend, but hates it, and falling in love with one of those boys.
It's complicate, isn't it?
His cute pattern makes me mad, 'cos I know that it's not for telling me about his sympathy for me.
I don't want to be so naive, I don't want to fall in love with every boy, with whom I can speak more than half an hour.
and, someday, I'll get the split personality, 'cos I hate my "kind, don't-worry" mask and afraid people, who dislike me, when I take it off.
yes, I love to criticize others, and do nothing for improve myself
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but... They criticize me too, and don't change too.
If you think I'm envy you - I'm not envy, I just want the same as you have.
I'm not going to take it away from you.
For a lonely soul, it seems to me that you're having such a nice time
oh I hate this Keane's line. He doesn't understand anything at all
ooooh, and here I am again. I wrote aboute my life on other platforms, but now I scream to noone can hear me.
I would kill myself, if staying alive wasn't my rule. I try hard not-to-fall-in-love, just because I'm coward and afraid of suffering too much.
Again and again. In the beginning it makes me the happiest person on the Earth, but few days later... I start to miss him.
I miss him, because he is the kindest and the cutest... and he may make a date with me just because of it. because wonderfull-life-for-all is his duty.
He loves my best friend, but it's unrequited. Now she happy - and he depressed. And I can't help him, how even I tried....
now i'm in foretaste of New year...
today i've heard one beautiful song on the radio (realy, more then one song))))) called "Merry Christmas Everyone" by "Shakin Stevens"... it's one of the greatest x-mas songs i ever heard)))
and i feeling toooooooo lazy 2 write capital letters))))))
Though I should be Ortodox, I like Catholic holidays too ^o^!! it is soooo funny, to wear Santa's cap and couple of little bells on my ears (looks crazy)))! This stupied classmates thought that I'm cow - what they know about Christmas!
And for impatient Russians: S nastupayuschim!!!
So, I want to say... Oh, maybe it's bad...
Today I realised - We must unconditionally love people 'cos when you start to analise your relationships or person you love - you stop. Brain start function, Heart is not. It's always sad. Tear to shreds all your "list-of-pluses-and-minuses", forget about disadvantages and panish into blind love. It will be better. I know.
Please, to the best comprehension listen great Peasant's song "Impeccable manners". Absolutely suit to the situation.
