since we broke up darling, i have changed immensely. i have grown up in ways that even i can't exactly believe. but in the end, i really need to thank you, because when you broke up with me, let me tell you, you ripped my fucking heart out without a backwards glance. and you know what, that hurt. that hurt so much, it took me a year to get over. i thought you were so fantastic, so much older and that you would always be there for me when i needed you, or when i simply just wanted you. but honestly, the whole "we really need to stay friends" thing? that has not turned out very well, zach because neither of us have made much of an effort. why didn't i? probably because i wanted you to think i was doing just fine without you, and i also didn't want to get even more in over my head. i needed a clean break, and you certainly gave it to me. but i didn't take it, because it wasn't at the right time but now, now is the right time. and i am tired of talking about you. tired of facebook stalking you. tired of STILL managing to squeeze you into my day with a thought. because thats not fair; i doubt you think about me every day. i think i was just your nice little grade eight girlfriend that you could depend on to not leave you. because honestly, i never would, zach. i would have stayed with you for such a long time, and i am not even too sure why. but one thing is for sure, zach i really, really loved you. and you, you didn't want that anymore so you decided to switch up my heart's function. nothing could have turned out more different. i want to forget you, but now i never will. your like a fucking scar on the inside of my eyelids. thanks a lot. i look forward to seeing you in tennis pal, and i'm ready to be friends and accept it when you kick my ass. because, by all means, go ahead and beat me in tennis again, but in the end, i'm the one that won. i got something important out of our past relationship, thats for sure. the big question is if you did? but honestly, i don't want to know because i am a different person now and i no longer want you back in my life.