Sorry, if this might make some of you feel sad. And sorry for writing such a sad first journal entery. I don't really understand. I honestly don't. So I'm pondering here. I was seeing life in a great perspective. I used to see the world in [for a lack of a better description] such bright colors. It was exciting and everyday I would look forward to it. But now, all of a sudden, it's almost like those bright colors disappeared and the only thing I see are shades. It's gray where ever I turn. All of a sudden, my bright vision died. And the weird thing is, is that I don't get why it did. All of a sudden I feel cornered. It might be my unsatisfactory life that I'm living now that I'm in high school. Or maybe I'm just realizing too much about myself this year. I think that's it. I kinda wish I never saw this point of view. It's...almost...sad, I guess. Not depressing. I don't want to head down there again. But yeah. I want to go back to the time I felt alive. I want to feel alive and see the bright colors. I want to be naive. I just want to bring the colors back.