Today was a pretty boring day. Nothing good happened, but nothing bad happened either. I had a lot of laughs with Bayla and Kylie :D. The BGF/ Raul situation has basically cooled over. After one day of not sitting by us, BGF came back, but he still isn't talking to Raul and is really mad at Bayla. I think he and I are pretty much back to normal. He said he's going to try to stop gossiping and judging so much. I'm proud that he's not being too difficult, but I have mixed feelings that it only took him a few days to cool down and "change for one other person." I guess he's just easily influenced by other people, but i think i am too. School is really boring. None of my teachers are really interesting, and all of the work is boring. Health class is probably one of my worst. We constantly talk about self-esteem and goals and stuff, and the teacher says being an average joe is not acceptable. She wants us to make tons of goals and write down every single detail about how we are trying to achieve them, try to get into good colleges, and be as peppy as she is. I just think getting graded and lectured on bettering our personality is a stupid theme for a class. My history class is probably the most eventful class of the day. I sit next to this really cute guy and though rarely, we do talk. I think my nickname for him on here will be Ice, cause his eyes remind me of it. Anyway, I think he is on the verge of dating this other girl, who is a freshman! :( They sit next to each other at lunch and have held hands. But today at lunch, I saw him see her hug another guy, and I was sad to see him sad, but happy cause that means Ice and her are less likely to date than i think. There's this other guy in that class too. He's kinda cute and really easy to talk to, and my friends think I would be good with him. He seems kind of awkward and like he's hiding something though. I don't know why, but I think I am going to call him Thom, hahah. Homecoming is coming, and I want to go or at least dance with somebody, but i don't know what to do. As much as I would like to ask Ice or Thom, or even just ask if they are going, I don't think I have the emotional strength to do it. I mean, it took a LOT for me to ask Ice the answer to a homework question instead of asking the girl behind me, who I usually go to for help. I don't know why I am so awkward. I think I need to get more guy friends. I don't really have any other than BGF and my jogging buddy from last year. Just in case you were wondering, "He" (haha i haven't mentioned that guy in forever! He got really different, in a bad way, over the summer) and I rarely talk anymore and is definitely out of the picture. His inner creeper is starting to shine through and he is weirdly clingy with his older sister's friends. Well, i guess this is the end of this loverly blog. I probably won't write back for a while cause I don't think anything exciting is going to happen at all this week.

Woah, i thought i wrote a journal entry on here since school started. Weird. Anyway, today was probably the most drama-filled day of school yet. In my first class, I had this werid feeling something bad was going to happen, and I was right. At lunch, we were all gossiping about this random girl and bgf was saying how much of a slut she was. Then bgf started to say some mean things about this other kid, who turned out to be this guy who now sits at our table's friend. (I'll call the new table guy Raul, cause its a cool name, lol.) Raul got really mad and said the reason he didn't like sitting by us was cause we gossip so much. Then BGF and Raul kinda started fighting, BGF saying gossiping was just who he is and that he's usually kidding, and Raul saying that most of the things we say aren't true, that most of the people we talk about are really nice if you get to know them, and that he has been on the recieving end of gossip and it has even made him...suicidal. BGF thinks Raul is just saying this for attention, and doesn't care at all about Raul's feelings! He says he's not going to change himself for one person. Then after lunch, BGF did the one thing i was hoping he wouldn't but knew he would- GOSSIP about the whole situation! Me and Bayla were getting annoyed and said "At least Raul was brave enough to tell his opinion!" I said to BGF, "Maybe you should be more open minded!" And THAT threw him over the edge! He gave me the most deadly stare i have ever seen. We haven't talked since. Kylie is siding with BGF and giving me the cold shoulder too. I'm really worried about Raul. Hearing him say gossip made him want to kill himself made me feel like crying! I'm still depressed about it! I don't know if he REALLY wants to do that, but i don't know what to do! He thinks that as soon as he leaves, we start talking about him, since he's heard all the things we say to other people. We don't, but i don't blame him for thinking that! I really want to try and gossip less, especially about people who I am nice to their face, and when Raul is around. But unless BGF gets a serious attitude adjustment that isn't going to happen! Honestly, I think even though it is bad, in a few weeks I will be back to my gossiping self. I know it is wrong, but that is probably what will end up happening. Our group has been like this since we were 12, and Raul has only been sitting with us for like half a year. BGF will probably end up talking to me by the end of the day tomorrow, and want to kick Raul and the freshmen out of our table and bring in the henchmen. He has wanted them to sit by us for a while, but there hasn't been room. They are like 10x meaner than him and will just add more fuel to his fire. I really want to stay friends with BGF, but I don't want anything to happen to Raul!!