this is going to be the most random journal entry ive written. its just stuff i feel like writing.... i want to go to: Italy!!!!! Switzerland! Spain! Belgium! Austria! --wow and moreeee some new songs for mee that i love! *Waking Up In Vegas by katy perry *New Divide by linkin park *Fix You by coldplay *the Scientist " " yeahh music is awesomeee!!! and i know this is extremely wierd but theres this really awesome game on www.miniclip.com it's called fancy pants adventure 2 goood time waster;kinda frusteratingg well im going to my friend beth's house today. soo excited! its gonna be me beth and eliza! BEK! ahhh cant wait. love you

summer has been like..great so far.its june 24. whatts not to love about endless days, warm sun, great tans, bike rides, swimming, being outside, new bikinis, short-shorts, t-shirts, tank tops,flip flops bathing suits, best friends, new friends, old friends, family, babysitting cutee neighbors, swings, beautiful nights, great mornings with cool beautiful weather, blazing hot need-to-be-in-pool weather, swim team, and looking forward to beach vaca in august! theres much more, can't think of! had a couple of guy friends over the other day, lots of fun, one got annoying real fast but whatever. the other one was tons of fun. he's my best friend. anyways...write laterr. Ti Amo

i havent written in a while. sorry.. but i was recently a bitch to this kid cuz he was gettin really annoying so i apologized yesterday and this is the first time...but i regret apologizing. he is jumping right back into talking every second so im ignoring him maybe we're just not meant to be friends...idc -------------------------------------------------- and tell me did you fall from a shooting star one without a permanent scar and did you miss me while your looking for yourself out there

im totally done with him. he lied to me again. and i diddnt even find out from him, it was from mine and his friend. hes not even man enough to tell me. im done. ------------------------- all this saddness, it's ending now. done getting upset about something I can't control. caught up in all your lies, you did everything but help me wasted my time dwelling over this regret every minute of it wish everything would just go away end this feeling, end this saddnes. end this confusion ....all these lies.

ive changed. I dont like it. not one bit. my new school has changed me aton. no, it's not really the school. it everything. after me and my ex broke up, i totally changed. i went from happy-go-lucky, to 24/7 depression in 2 short days. now, im not deppressed, but I'm lost, i dont recognize myself, i dont like myself. i was myself when i was with him, and now i'm different. i hate half of my so called "friends" but i do like most of them, theres just a couple that if i see one more time im gonna blow my top off. i just need them to stay away. for a little while. thank god summer is almost here..but not close enough. well thats basically all i have to say...i guess, -------------------------------- so let mercy come, and wash away, what ive done ill face myself, to cross out what ive become, erase myself, and let go of what ive done.

so just now i was talking to one of my really good friends. she was saying how her boyfriend told her he didnt love her but still liked her alot and didnt want to lose her. I really though this was absurd, i dont understand it. and i realized soemthing. some people always take and never give. they always depend on you for something, then dont help you with any of your problems, some people expect you to wait for them. they have u waiting on a string, and they walk all over you. no one deserves that. so**word to the wise** if anyone treats you like that, leave them. you deserve better,