Wooh! I just got home about an hour ago from a very AMAZING concert! I saw City & Colour tonight with two of my friends. The opening band was Said the Whale, and they did amazing live as well! When Dallas Green from city & colour was about to come on my breathe litterally caught, I was so excited! The band was amazing and I was really close, but annoying people kept on yelling things like "We love you!" or "take your shirt off". It was bothersome because Dallas Green didn't seem to enjoy those people. Today we had our track meet as well. It was fun until it became freezing cold and snowed on all of us! Thank god some people brought blankets or else I probably would have gotten frost bite! We weren't allowed to leave either, we had to stay till the end! So basically today was pretty busy and tiring! A bit of an update on me and my oddness. I've passed out a few times lately. It's only happened when I'm afraid/ someone scares me or I'm surprised. My cat (his name is cat!) made it happen yesterday :( I'm confused as to what's going on, but I suppose passing out isn't to bad; at least I'm not having seizures or anything! I'm going to lay down and sleep now though, because I'm EXTREMELY tired after my long day! Xxxxxxxxx

Today I got back from my camping trip! I'm very happy to be back, but the trip was fun! We stayed at this terrible place though, it was called macdonald farm or something and it was just so dirty and icky! Tomorrow school starts again and I'm excited to see everyone! My sleeping patterns have changed a bit. When the night begins and I lay down I will fall asleep almost immediatley, but I will sleep for a couple hours then wake up. I constantly wake up throughout the night and usually for long periods of time. It's so very stressful! Last Thursday I missed school because in the morning I ended up passing out. I wanted to go to school because I had a test but my mother made me stay at home because she was afraid it would happen again. It was actually quiet a frightening situation. Especially because I was just laughing and then I had lost all muscle control, but when I was down on the ground I wasnt sure wheither or not I was aware of my surroundings. Also I may want to add that tomorrow will be one month since I last threw up! Wooh! I'm excited! Anyway I'm gonna lay down and sleep since I'm super tired! Xxxxxxxx -Ali

Hmm. Well the past two days have been good school-wise for me! Yesterday I handed in that circuit project Dani & me were partners for. I worked on all of the decorating (by myself) this weekend, and I have to say that my circuit house was amazing! When I brought it to school Dani freaked out because it was so beautiful & ours was the best in the class! People were surprised by how much effort I put into it! I painted the house purple and I got crazy creative with all of the stuff I made for the house (Like flower beds outside, a couch, a toilet&bathtub, a super cool bed!, flowers in vases, a television with Obama & Oprah on it, dressers/drawers, etc!) I absolutley loved how that project turned out!! And then as well on that day I got back my marks for a practice PAT (Provincial achievement Test) that the class did & I got 95% on it! The practice test was for English, and I'm so happy! My English teacher says I have an amazing writing voice! She says she loves all of my storys, and well the official PAT is tomorrow so I hope I can improve & get 100%, since the test is worth 10% of our final grade! Anyway, I just feel so good about because I'm doing amazing when the teacher is complaining about everyone else doing terrible! I feel sort of bad because some of my friends are getting around 50/60%... Also this weekend I saw the movie Nick & Norah's infinite Playlist! I absolutley loved it! It was adorable, cute, and just absolutley amazing! And I have to say that I always love it when I'm watching a movie & I hear music that I have & Love! For long weekend I'm going camping with my family apparently, and also their two friends and their 5 year old daughter are coming as well. I forget where we are going, but apparently it's supposed to be pretty wicked! Anyway, I'm going to lay down and try to sleep!! XXXXXXXXXX

Hmm. It's currently 4:27am & I can't sleep so I decided to write. I haven't slept at all tonight, not even one minute, and yet I still feel wide awake! Well I was originally up till 1am because I was babysitting one of my mother's friends kid, but I don't know if that screwed me up so that I wouldn't sleep the entire night... Who knows... Anyway tomorrow, or technically today, is mother's day! Wooh! Apparently I'm supposed to spend the entire day with my mother and her and me are going to go see a matinée, I'm not sure what one yet. Haha, but tonight my mother came home drunk on wine (at 2am), I was peeing and she knocked on the bathroom door asking if she could come in. She let me cover up first, but I was still on the toilet, but the reason she came in was to show me some flowers that her friends had bought her for mother's day! She was funny though, she sounded like a five year old when she talked to me! Oh and by the way for track I'm in the 3000m run, but I'm not sure if I've made any of the other teams I tried out for.I don't really know what to share with you all, except for the fact that I'm curious if anyone actually reads my journal!! Since I'm out of Idea's for what to write I'm probably just going to shut my eyes and try to sleep; I doubt I'll get any though! Goodnight xxx

Sorry that I haven't wrote in a while. I suppose since it's been a while I'll just give you a quick brief of everything that's happened. Dani wasn't at school at all except Monday & Tuesday last week because she had become very sick; we had a scare where her doctor thought It was swine flu but she got some tests done & it's thankfully not swine flu! I saw Dani today which was exciting because I haven't seen her since Tuesday because she was so sick! Well today I went shopping with my friend Nicole (We refer to her as Cole though), we saw Dani during her 15 minute break at work and then we shopped till 5pm (I got my Ray Ban - Wayfarers! I'm so happy! I got them in black!) and then we met up with Dani because she was done working and we went up to the food court and just hung out for a while with Trevor as well. I rather enjoyed today! Although we're having troubles with Max again... Nothing crazy, just we're having issues. On Tuesday when we made up with her she was trash talking about a sometimes friend we have (Emma) because she was trying to mess us up while we were fighting (ex. Telling Max that Dani and I were giving Max dirty looks when we truthfully weren't even looking at them!). Anyway Max has been acting besties with Emma since then and the two have been spending a ton of time together. Theres also been some other crap that I won't go into detail about it. I'd like to mention that I'm very proud of myself because I haven't forced myself to throw-up/purge in a while. Although it's been tempting at times I still haven't, which is great! Plus, I got a suggestion that I may have the disease Narcoleptic, I did some research and it sort of fits. So I'm going to try and get some tests done with my doctor for that as soon as possible. Anyway, I should probably lay down and try to sleep. Good Night. xxx

Well my Aunt & Uncle, etc, left yesterday around 3:30pm. We didn't end up going to the zoo because of all the crazy ass snow. Instead we ended up going out for lunch. I didn't miss much at school; everyone told me that some guy just came in and talked to the school about using ecstasy and how it's bad; yada yada yada. Last night Dani & me got in a major fight with Max. One thing that really pissed me off was that she said the only reason we hate Ryan is because she spends more time with him & she said were jealous of him. Dani & me are NOT jealous of Ryan. He's just a giant douchebag; over the summer he called Max a slut/whore & a bitch multiple times, plus he flirts with other girls & Max doesn't seem to care! Plus he speaks bad about Dani (and possibly me) and I just can't stand that! Max also said that we were bad friends because we couldn't do the SMALL thing of becoming friends with Ryan just for her. Finally Dani said she was done with Max unless Max apologized. Anyway, today Dani & me didn't talk to Max at all until lunch. We had decided that we needed to talk to Max because we still wanted to be friends with her. We apologized (and Max didn't!) and to make Max happy we said we would try & be nice to Ryan. (which I don't plan to do and I know Dani won't do, I just said it to make her happy). Well Dani and me talked afterwords and we decided to be friends with Max because we still love her and would miss her; but we just don't trust her anymore and I think she's no longer a best friend... Anyway that was just a quick update for you all before I lay down in my bed & TRY to sleep! I should probably mention that I'm still not sleeping well. Anyway, Goodnight xxx

Hmm. So my family arrived at 8ish like I predicted. Today I think we are just going shopping, plus my mother really wanted to go to Toys R Us to buy some things for Jackson. Then my mother, Jody, Aunty & Uncle are going to a 'The Killers' concert. I'm going to be babysitting four kids while they are gone: my brother Jackson and my three little cousins.Then on Monday I'm going to miss school to go to the zoo with my family. I'm super excited because next Friday Dani & me are going shopping. I'm excited because I'm going to buy myself two amazing pairs of sunglasses! I'm going to get Ray Bans, The Wayfarers. If you want to look at them their code is RB 2140. I'm going to get one pair in black and the other in red! I'm just so excited to get them that I can barely wait for Friday to come! YAY! Last night I managed to sleep around 2-3 hours. I woke up officially at 4am, so I just laid in my bed until 8am. I had to stay in my bed because my little cousin was sleeping in my bed with me, so if I moved I probably would have woken her up. So it was a very boring night for me! I should probably go though because I'm supposed to be spending time with the family. I'll update later on how my day went! Goodbye.

So today is Saturday. I'm not allowed out to hang out with any of my friends because my Aunt & her Kids and husband are coming to visit from today till Monday. They will be arriving at around 8 at night(I think), so it's sort of stupid that I'm not allowed out right now. Instead I have to clean a ton. Max came to school on Thursday, she acted as if the fight had never happened. She got both Dani and me a gift, they were like crappy little miniature wooden fish that you put on the hood of your car. She got Ryan a bracelet (who gets their boyfriend a bracelet?!) and some expensive shirt. So then Dani & me definatley felt cheaped out on! Anyway Thursday the entire day Max acted like as if it were old times. Friday we had a half day at school so then afterwards I went out for lunch with Dani, Trevor (Dani's Boyfriend), Emma, Sheldon, & Brandon. I truthfully don't like Brandon, he used to be a close part of our group (Dani, Jay,Trevor, & me) when we were younger, but then he just became a douche & now none of us like him; he only came along because we invited Sheldon. We went to A&W so I just had a salad & some fries. Basically because if I ate a burger I know I would want to throw up, I have a weak stomach as is & any greesy food makes me feel incredibly sick. Actually most meats make me feel sick, so I avoid eating meat at all costs & only eat it when necessary. After eating lunch & hanging out for a while I had to go home to babysit Jackson, and then of course I had another night filled with NO sleep, well actually I got about an hour or so. So now here I am, bored and writing on my blog, I'm supposed to be cleaning so I should probably go. Goodbye :)

Max didn't come to school today, apparently because she got home from Mexico really late. So I avoided any awkwardness today. I texted a bit throughout the day & I brought up how she didn't seem to care about how Ryan would say bad things about Dani and me, she said that she has gotten angry at him before but I doubt it... Max stopped texting me when I brought up how Ryan doesn't fit in with Dani & mine's specific group of friends. I don't know if she just didn't get the message or if that pissed her off or what. Also today it snowed and it was so cold! I find it stupid that its snowing in April, grrr! But I walked to school in flats so by the time I arrived my feet were freezing cold & soaking wet! I think tomorrow I'll wear boots to protect my feet! Anyway not much really happened today so I'm just gonna stop writing here.

Ok then. So then Max came back from Mexico today, but didn't come to school. She'll be coming to school tomorow though and I'm sort of worried. I'm not sure how I should act around her, if I should be angry or what. I've been so worried about it that I almost considered throwing up today, but I didn't. Which is a total surprise to me because I've been feeling nauesous today, so then it would have been easier then normal. I'm actually quote proud of myself that I resisted! I did a bit of thinking today though. I was in the lab today working on some circuit crap with my table and Max's boyfriend (Ryan) is in my table group. Anyway I was talking to someone and then all of a sudden I heard Ryan mumble Dani's name, so I turned to him and asked him what he said & he told me that he had said that "Dani was annoying". So I snapped at him and told him to never speak down on Dani in front of me, he said he would just do it later then but I chose to not pick a fight with him. The fact that he even said that in front of me pissed me off extremely. He's said stuff about Dani in front of me in the past and I always yell at him, I'll mention it to Max but she never really cares. Anyway when that happened I thought back to a time when one of Max's good friends said some mean things about Ryan 'behind her back' and Max got really upset and stopped being friends with her. The second anyone says something bad about Ryan, Max like officially hates them. But the idea that Ryan will say something bad about her two best friends (because I bet he says crap about me too.) and she could really care less makes me really wonder how much she actually cares... She's basically alienated everyone from her life, and it's all because of him. That was what mainly pissed me off today, tomorrow I plan to ask Max -if I get a chance- about that whole thing I thought up today.