the lyrics to this song are just so beautiful so i decided to share them with you i know its silly posting LYRICS into a JOURNAL on a LYRIC and SONG MEANING site but when you think about it some people might look at my journal and find the lyrics which they wouldnt inishally search for soo here it is the GazettE - without a trace I peel off my frail consciousness slowly, So my footsteps won't make a sound. I become ash, scattering into tiny pieces. nothing more nothing more without a trace this feeling aware of my ignorance is more cowardice than helplessness. Crawling into the pit of my mixed consciousness, I ask my subconsciousness... "i cannot see the tomorrow right befor my eyes" burying your breath in the still season you who waited for help got wet the withered song you cant hear anymore has no exceptions ..im crying the tears i shed for my loss will also flow when you are pulled down by sadness so that i dont have to watch someone else die qithout help i close my eyelids my body thats entwined with spirals is slowly slowly twisting in my throat thousnds of questions i want to ask for me what can i save? tomorrow is dying right befor my eyes burying your breath in the still season you who waited for help got wet the withered song you can hear any more has no exceptions im crying like a dense fog clearing up like a proof of existence that wont disappear the withered song you cant hear anymore if this song reaches you you might think its hypocrisy burying your breath in the still season you who waited for help got wet like my raised voice you cant hear anymore i know my sins cannot be restored

ARGHHH i cant ytake him any more ryan is driving me insane i blew off during maths today won the battle and im going to win the wall NOWAY am i EVER letting ANYONE speak like that to me...EVER i wont be walked over by a stupid sexist pig such as him yet hes the only one everyone else i get along with very well shawns just sooo funny and joe's dippy a male version of eve lmao although he can be annoying but ryan is just so pig headed he says things during an argument that makes no sense and is irrelivant and then when he cant think of anything else to say as a come back he sulks like a four year old and oh yes question: WHY is he always talking about me to his girlfirend on how im "pissing him off" and im "shouting my mouth off around him" if i was hes girlfriend id be thinking "hmmmm why is he always taalking about her so much" yano id bee abit suspicious on why hes on about her but yeah w.e i dont give a shit anymore if he speaks to me ill punch him in that fat arse nose of his im sick of it he picked the WRONG girl to mess with you fuck with me and baby i fight back stronger and harder.....a trait i picked up from my mother always stand up for yourself (and what you belive in). ......as the days go on i keep thinking if im anorexic i mean i eat on occasion i dont gain weight and when i do i think WOAH thats way to much but i dont starve myself either sometimes i can really ingorge myself in food but still think its to much also how everyone goes "ohh your way to skinny were worried about you you should eat more try eating lots and lots and lots" yano thats easy for them to say i cant do that sometimes it makes me sooo sick i just want to throw up....*sigh* im going to listen to dir en grey embryo (album version) sayonara

im so angry at ryan hes really doing my head in. i do hate him and i really do wish he was dead and im not that sort of person and i wouldnt wish that upon anyone but hes actully drove me to thinking like that its come to the point that im shutting out of my life completly i dont want him to talk to me work with me i dont want him to even breath by me this is how far its gone considering we did have a relationship but i supose after everything it just went down hill anyway i feel like im some evil horrible person who deserves to die themselves for wishing that hes was dead well i guess i am ...arent i i must be a terrible person.


But in a way me being aan athiest does it matter.. i mean im open to the consept of there being a god but not entierly convinced of it i mean when i did belive in him bad things always seemed to have happned and i didnt just belive in him because i wanted stuff off him i just wanted him to let the people who do good and are good to have a life that is good instead of having to struggle so much and seeing as in as i grew up i never really had those thoughts that god was watching over me/us all i supose the concept of him existing just left me.everyone must think im terrible i mean im going to hell arent i. dont get me wrong iv never done anything seriously wrong but i havent exactly been perfect i supose that if i dont belive does it really matter ..well i wouldnt say that i dont belive but this is to much over my maturity level that i can handle i mean im 15 this year im still a child when you think about it yano ill be ready for that when i dont know say 18 for me to actully fully understand god i guess well i know what i mean in my head but when i write it it all comes out really wrong anyway ive done WAYYY to much talking im going to listen to some versailles and think i guess

well im going shopping tomorrow on a long hunt for lace and ribbon and other stuff i need to make my gothic lolita headband well ive created other items of fashion befor so hopefully this will go according to plan i can also put it in my fashion portfolio along with others well im gunna go listen to some alice nine and find a nice jrock mullet to have my hair cut like not going so well so far lmao bye

im alil bored so putting some poems on ive done lost sleeping here im lost in my dreams all alone the only noises are vacont screams running away from the things that reside eyes penitrating my soul seeking somewhere i hide tears streaming down start freezing to my pale face nothing i see is pleasing all my fears locked in the corner of my mind have been set free all love is left behind sleeping here im lost in my dreams nevere returning or so it seems this is called :the wind up doll i sit in the corner on a shelf full of dust you used to think playing with me was a must but now youve changed and im alone just alittle wind up doll that no one has known i twirled so graciously for you to enjoy but know your only care is for some stupid boy my little black out fit my ballerina shoes they mean nothing now i was just used i got so angry so full of hate i saught revenge and to this date im waiting for the moment to strike my attack and then twirl again and hope you never come back!

hello one and all im back havent been on for awhile busy with my tests to decide my group for year 10 hopefully i stay in red set (top set) but im pretty dumb but yeah im abit peeved because i wanted to take french for one of my options cuz we dont do any other languges i find intresting but not "enough" people took it so i am now being forced to do socioligy(?spelling) lol lately ive been learning japanese as im so into the music languge and overall culture so im learning it although i hope that no one thinks im just an english girl trying/posing to be japanese as thats not what im going for i just want to learn a languge im pasionate about so im not trying to pose of that is what people would be thinking anyway im going to listen to some music now chat alittle as you do bye ^_^

okay i dont know how things can get much boring so ive came her to blog/rant/go on about things that are pretty pointless (aka. my life)well im sick of school its gotten to the point that im seriosly considering wether to even try now i mean we cant have any idividuality at all no bright coloured hairbands black socks only plain black shoes with nothing on i mean come on this is so pathetic we cant take or blazers of while in the school at the END of the blimmin day when were going home no extreme hairstyles im lucky i wasnt sent hime yano i hate it so much the teachers cant even teach let alone some of the people in my class are annoying as hell dont get me wrong get along with everyone except ryan hes a twat but other than that im alright with them but 3 years with almost all the same people is pretty boring anyway im bored im going to listen to some gazette and dir en grey for abit bye yall