SO MOTHERFUCKERS IT HAPPENED soundwave, it was insane a day of jumping, moshing, headbanging, singing, screaming, best day ever, in so much pain rihgt now, cant rly speak i cant rly walk but it was so worth it time 2 recover now

single no more soundwave in 51 hours roughly i bleed till the day i die

parents doing my head in, do this do that, im in sydney and i know where i wanna be, chillin on the harbour for chinese new year getitng drunk with randoms, meeting them, but no family dinner then early nite 2 go home 2morro fuck that shit, im feeling like crap ive been smoking 2 a day oh well, sex drugs and rock n roll. its almost here just 6 more days

so im in sydney right now and i dunno whether its a good thing or a bad thing, im chillin around the city and on the beach and for serious the women here are amazing, but iuno im getting driven insane my family is fucking nuts oh well, i missed out on fringe, but im going 2 kings cross 2nite i think my nite will be better... plus the hotel doesnt ask for id, the hotel doesnt ask for id the hotle doesnt ask for id, i can get drinks in room with no hassle hahahahaha fuck trying 2 sneak into a bar and get soemthing it comes 2 me

so new soty album is out finally, ive had it for less than a day, and in this time 3 songs have been finished and i fucking like them, ive had 2 fights with my rents, i went out 2nite whoop dee fucking doo, i came home before normal curfew anyway, wtf, i dont fucking care anymore, ive been raged at, ive seen the anger, i dont fucking care anymore, study day was fail anyway, procrastination is a fucking bitch, oh well another sleepless nite coming up, do i do it, or dont i? do i stop or do i start again? fucking hell its rly not easy saying wat needs 2 be said here, fuck it, im smoking again, by choice, no not weed, but im going 2 get fucked up real soon, even if ppl cbfed going 2 tom's party its just so we cna get drunk and celebrate a mate being alive but who would want 2 do that? its fucking stupid i try and organise something just coz he's my friend and no ppl cbfed coming they'd rather stay home and sleep, last time i checked we are teenagers, who normally like 2 get drunk and have a fuckload of fun, but no oh fucking well, fucking parents get off my back, fucking hell they tell me act like an adult i do, they then fucking rage at me for 3 hours because they didnt know exactly where i was i left a fucking note that shuld be fucking good enuff, oh fucking well fuck it ima go smoke, i need something anything 2 get the fuck out of here

its here no more waiting straining for inspiration the music which has helped me thru so much, the band which seems 2 inspire me more then anything else, its here new story of the year >

3 things hvae changed in my life recently and i dont fucking like it................. number 1: 17 days without a smoke, cravings can go suck a fat one, they fucking suck, ive beent rying 2 write but my mind is 2 fucked so watever it fucking sucks number 2: there was something about mel here before but i got rid of it, when well i slipped, so mel she used 2 work at kfc, sure ive probably labelled wat we have as a bit over eager, we've been out a couple times so i probs should rephrase wat i label our relationship as, she's not my girlfriend but i dont want 2 go out with any other girl, she just seems 2 have captivated me again, but this time its ok, so the only way this seems it can go for the moment is good. oh and friends that dont think she exists just coz she doesnt have facebook can go and get fucked, not everyone lives on the fucking computer fuck sake

retreat was alrite, kinda sucked at the end, getting wet TP stuffed into my shit, if i find the bitches that did it ill fuck em up, no joke, ill fucking make heads roll, its just so fucking childish. the walk 2day was good, ive been sorta outta it for a bit, i havent written, i havent done my normal routine, its just fucked, the walk was good, specially the barb wire, ive got a 3inch gash that i never knew existed, its interesting when i want pain i feel it, but when im in nothingness nothing registers home now skool 2morro keen 2 get fucked up already