my hallowed friend, i see you passing by, i wait for the day we can reunite, u were there for me even if you didnt know, you brought me through those times, of hardship and of sorrow. I cant believe your gone, the friend i thought i'd never lose, taken way too soon, im feeling such pain i feel im torn, it killing me 2 know, i wont b there 2 show, everyone who doubted you, and everyone who doubted me, i cant believe your gone, im sorry i wont b there, to say my last goodbye, just know that mate, i'd have given my life 4 you. You were taken way 2 young, i'll miss you man, as i take this chance to run, i'll find a place i can reminisce, about all the times we shared, the times we played around, the memories i shared with you. I cant believe your gone, the friend i thought i'd never lose, taken way too soon, im feeling such pain i feel im torn, it killing me 2 know, i wont b there 2 show, everyone who doubted you, and everyone who doubted me, i cant believe your gone, im sorry i wont b there, to say my last goodbye, just know that mate, i'd have given my life 4 you. you were there for me when i wept, you were there when i bled, you where there when people said im crazy, and you saved me reagrdless of what i said, i'll never forget you, you were my friend, my closest ally, almost my brother in the end, i'll meet with you again, i have no idea when, but the day i do i'll play you, this sorrow filled song again. I'll never forget you, no matter how long im here, your the guy that stood beside me, when i thought this was the end, im lost here without you, never 2 see you again, im torn apart without you, Daniel you were my best friend. This is something i wrote to help me remember my recently passed friend Daniel, im gonna miss you man, RIP, and im nto afraid 2 admitt, i cried when i finished this, he was my best friend, may he rest in peace

So something has happened, but im not sure how to describe it yet so i started writing this, its sorta based around wats happened but its no where near finished but tell me wat ya think plz These insecurities, they fill my mind, restless thoughts coursing through my soul, All these troubles, im walking blind, living life, without a goal. Clear my eyes, brave the dark, everywhere i go, I'm torn apart, Suffer these hardships alone, my feet they feel like stone. I'm gonna break free before it's, too late, I'm doing all i can to escape. Desperate thoughts on my lips, So much to say, no ears to hear, I've got nothing to show for all these hardships. Over all these years, I never thought I'd be blinded with these fears. Clear my eyes, brave the dark, everywhere i go, im torn apart, Suffer these hardships alone, my feet they feel like stone. Im gonna break free before it's, too late, Im doing all i can to escape. Tell me wat i need 2 add plz, i know its missing something

Its new Cry me a river with your problems, cry me an ocean of your tears, i've heard all these problems before, and im sorry i cant get control of them, I've done all i can, to relieve your pain, and im sorry i bring you so much shame, All the pressures and pain your feeling, im gonna find a way to lift the pressure, and stem all of the pain that your feeling here tonight, The pain and the suffering, it flows through us all, the current's going to pull us under, it'll flow till we cant stand the pressure, and when we're gone it'll continue to flow Cry me a river of all the suffering, cry me an ocean of their pain, im gonna conquer this pain, im gonna fight till i can't stand and when its all done, ill cry myself a river of my pain, and cry an ocean of my tears

I've gotta write about the dream i had last night it was so fucked up yet so awesome, but i have to say something about my decision, i dunno wat im going to do about mel, im just not that good with girls, but with the anti depressants well after the dream last night, i dunno i said i wasnt going to take them while i was away, but i dunno wat i shuld do anymore after this dream. So in this dream, well it started off sorta like terminator, i was running from some secret organisation, and i was with two bodyguards of sorts, there was this black guy caled James, and this white chick called Rachel, so we were running, then we were crossing statelines in America, got in car ('67 Mustang) drove to a supposed "safehouse" when we got there, the people that were watching the safe house, other agents from whatever organisation i was from, anyway they told us about how we would be safe in the "safehouse" which was made of glass. when i heard that all i could think was wtf glass. Anyway, they told us about how their son, jeremy had gone to some training academy for some other organisation but it was a good thing, it was getting late and we were deciding who would take first watch, in the end i did, it got to about 4am when i was just about to swap watch, i saw something, i saw a man in a red winter jacket, one of those blizzard type ones, and it scared the shit out of me seeing this guy, I yelled out to James and Rachel, who came running, i told them about the guy and they told me it must be from lack of sleep. Rachel took over next watch. Then it was the next day, and we were dicussing our next move, we decided to stay at the "safehouse". It got dark, and the other agents told us that they had brought in back up becuase of what i had thought i had seen. The back up had no idea who we were for our security, and it showed, when they first rocked up. The back up consisted of an american who looked like he was 16, and a guy of russian decent, with a 3 pronged scar over his left eye. When they came inside the russian guy, look at me and asked "why the fuck r we guarding some kid", instead of waiting for James or Rachel to respond I told him, "I'm not a kid, im from operation Mainstream." When he heard that he instantly shut up after saying "whatever you need sir." It got dark again, but instead of going off we stayed together just incase. I was gazing out the window thinking of how things had been before (how things r now like right here) when i saw the guy in the red jacket again, this time Rachel and James saw him too, as they asked me "did u see that aswell" i nodded, we all looked around thinking of how vulnerable this palce actually was, then the sound of breaking glass, and it was on, windows crashing everywhere flying bodies, fighting going on and on, i saw the guy in the red jacket running away about to hop the fence, i chased after him, just as he was going over the fence, i dragged him to the ground, he got up, took a swing at me, i spun him around, and grabbed him in a headlock, i tried to drag him back to the house, when a guy grabbed me from behind and threw me into the glass wall and i crashed through it. James tackled the guy that threw me but the guy in the jacket was escaping. I got up gingerly, and ran as fast as i culd to get the guy in the jacket, i got to him just as he was pulling his leg over the fence, i grabbed it and yanked him to the ground. I grabbed him in a headlock again but this time i yelled out to James to come give me a hand. We took him back to the house, which had stopped fighting. We tied him to a chair, and then tried to regroup as to how this happened, how we had been found. It was morning and the guy had given us nothing, then the agents who had originally been at the house, said that their sun was going to return today from his training and the guy in the jacket burst into a grin, and i began to think, "shit this guy has infiltrated government training porgrams" i heard a car door slam shut, i look towards the front of the house, and there i saw a latino teenager about 19 walking towards the house, suddenly the agents stood up and ran to the door to greet their son, i looked at the guy in the jacket and said "You're corrupting the teenage admissions arent you, turning them into your own personal army"..... After that i woke up, but whats really fucked is when i woke up, my back hurt like i had been thrown into something, freaky but true, so anyway i thought i shuld write it down as i havent written a song in a while so, at least my mind is still being creative.