"The Moon's entry into your 12th House of Secrets today creates a bit of a dilemma for you. You are pulled between telling someone how you feel and saying nothing at all. Ultimately, you are better off if you reveal some of your hidden feelings, but it's probably not a good idea to ramble on incessantly about issues that do not concern others. Pay close attention to what you're saying and use your discretion to know when to stop." I always read these at the end of the day so it doesn't affect my behavior in any way. But I was about to confess this morning; I was about to tell everyone in my church group about my problem... It was the perfect opportunity but I just couldn't do that to myself. In the end I just said, "Look. There's something keeping me from God. I know exactly what it is, too; I'm just not willing to let it go right now." Why? Because I'll get FAT!!! This is the most horrible cycle - how does ANYONE escape? I want to get rid of the poison but I don't want to get rid of the skinny. I want to be thin to be attractive, but I know I can't hope to attract anyone worthwhile without God's intervention... and that person wouldn't care what I looked like, anyway... I just don't know. I am NOT a fundamentalist Christian in any form or fashion, but it's almost enough to make me believe in demon possession (in a strictly metaphorical sense). Ugh now I sound just like my mother. Ugh. I never want to be like her.