Questions,worries,anxieties of one who "so badly" wants to win the affections of another: Am here,ALWAYS,4 u.. but am i enough? When there are so many others, do you see me? I fear when i leave, you'll forget me; yet in a crowd,am too insignificant. And when i hurt you, in an attempt to cover up all these feelings, will you forgive me? Do i want you to forget how "mean" i can be? Sometimes not, if it keeps you away from me. Then my mind is "safe" for a bit. It's bitter-sweet: when you're there, when you're not, I'll be cheery, I'll be sad.. I remind self, "am not waiting. am not hoping". But the heart tells a whole other story. The trick,i think, is to realise that with or without you i haven't lost.