1. That i will be forever faithful to my girl only, no one else can ever compare to her, i love her with all my heart 2. That when i finish school (and actually pass it), i will be getting myslef a full time job ( doing hours for nightshift), save up incredible amounts of money, and use it for the things i really want to happen (see my girl, catch up with mates, go to the snow and other various areas) 3. That when i fully gain a lot of confidence, i hope to bring out more of my creativeness, publish things like old poems, sing songs, make a book, something 4. That when everything is going great, i will be happy, healthy, and ready for whatever else life will throw at me.. :)

well... as unbelievable as it sounds, this long distance relationship i have with my girl is still going strong, despite being bout 12 hours away from her. thats why i feel little bit sad, but im happy that it has passed a month, cannot stop smiling to myself, i love her so damn much that i just wanna see her now, be by her side and all that... woohoo... anyways with regards to school, had the first week off due to being sick and that really sucked as i couldnt go on the outdoor ed excursion, the camp i really wanted to go on, so that is probably the biggest downfall i have had in a while... they had a good time.. which is good for them, grrr... so its the second week back, my 3rd day here at school, time is flying, soon i would of been finished.. (in october, i think on the 22nd is muck up day) so i sit back and think bout all the time i have spent at secondary school.. there have been some good times and a lot of bad times, that i now wanna turn that all around and try my best to live life, it something i havent really felt up to, but i do wanna try a bit more in this journey im taking with myself,

this is my mind working really hard to retrieve this memory.. 30th of may, i was on this website thing called myyearbook, i secretly admired some person, then added her to be my friend, then sent her a message that im not normally on there often and gave her my mobile number... (little did i know of the events that would unfold from this, hehehe) i got off myyearbook, some hours later i had got a txt from this gal, her name was... and yeah... she asked where i was from, i said my town, she like sweet im from......... yeah anyways, the town names arent important here, she was a 25 cent girl, (vodafone).. so i knew it would be hard to contact her, but she called me a number of times since that night, she told me she has a daughter and she dont give guys the time of day.. lol... i found out a lot, she sent me few pics too.. so i was kinda thinking that she might of had an interest in me... later on the calls were more frequent, i got info out of her that she does like me, and i liked her too... but she wanted to get to know me a bit more, so we continued contact for another week or 2 and she said in a txt i would call u mine, but yeah that would be kinda hard... i said to her if u really wanna be with me we could make this work, or something similar to that, then she txt back 'i will sleep on it, i will have an answer tomoro'.... next day she said yup yup, that was a truly good sign... its ten days today... and i know that she really loves me, its sooo sweet, i really love her too, and wont do anything to fuck it up... i cant... i trust her with my life, though we are hours apart from one another... and no one would wanna fuck it up for me..the love i feel is very powerful.. xoxo

my mind is in an absolute rush today, now why i say that is because its close to the end of term 2, and tests are happening on my subjects (lucky i dont have to do my exams as i have so much to catch up on).. the finish of secondary school is starting to get closer... bout 5 or so months left.. yeah.. but i still have a lot to do, pressure does really build up in me.. the homework, keeping updated is one hell of a big task, since im pretty lazy, and well sooner or later im bound to change my way of being so lazy and incapable of doing things, and just go for what life throws at me, im sure there are plenty in similar situations to me, where things might look tough now, but as things progress, they get a bit easier to handle..

hey to all, me name is holly.. for anyone who should read this, haha.. i am a typical 17 year old, from australia.. and the big thing thats sets me up in this world is music, cant go anywhere without it.. i love all kinds of styles, from rock to pop, heavy metal, to even blues and jazz.. techno, orchestra, celtic, country, indie, soft alternative, r'n'b, the list goes on and on.. i would like to one day, be able to publish some of me own material.. that would be so damn awsum..i got only words for now.. but music should come along, soon enough.. see, the power of music for me, goes rite deep into my soul, it an escapable connection, favourite bands rite now are Paramore, Muse, Carolina Liar, Evanescence and too many others.. solo artists include Savage, Scribe, Taylor Swift, Jason Derulo, Katy Perry, Lady Gaga, Delta, Beyonce, Alicia Keys, Cascada, Regina Spektor, and many others.. i will write another time..