it's blocked on the server and this is the only thing i can do. look me up or whatever, i'm xblackoutsummer. basically, i'm at school and i'm not in a good mood. i cut my hair uneven by about a quarter inch, and it's not totally noticeable, but i'm fixing it when i get home. i have a headache and i almost stayed home today because i feel like throwing up. & i'm alright though. dijon is all obsessed with some boy, i'm just laughing because i know he'll get turned down. i'm not trying to be mean or anything, but the guy just broke up with his girlfriend, and yeah. ex boyfriend looks good in his rotc uniform. /sigh why do i have to miss being close to him? i read page 79 of mine and dijon's journal yesterday. it made me all sad; and he stared at me, just like they do in the movies, and i laid my head on his shoulder...and he kissed my forehead, and it's all good. we broke up three days later, hahaha. i don't quite know if i like boys? i don't know. they're all just...mean to girls. i think they may just be obsessed with themselves or something. like in the hallways or whatever guys bump into me and they're all like "whoops" but they don't...apologize? and they're really rude too. i hate when their pants sag, as well. that's disgusting. we all know you have an asscrack, you should just leave its size to the imagination. i've been sort of bitchy to a lot of guys lately though. i think it comes naturally though. they make fun of me, so i tear them down even harder. i don't care. i don't care. :) i'm to the point where, if i date someone, fine whatever. & if i don't, i'm fine with that too. i have friends. and i have enough friends to keep my life in tact. i haven't had a boyfriend in a month & that's not like me. for the past thre or four years i've always had someone. and this is the longest i've ever been single. it's a bit nice actually. it's given me a lot of time to reflect on myself and what i want. i have about $80 left from the 150 my dad sent me for christmas. i need a new straightener, mine quit on me yesterday, that's about a hundred fifty ): and i need hair dye, another $10 i'm taking my mom and dijon to Fazoli's, $30 i need to get my hair cut/layered/fixed, or something, $12.95 so yeah, i need to save up some stuff. i type too much.