I think I've given up on myself.

I can only describe it as feeling inadequate. Maybe a touch of who the fuck am i and what am i doing. i feel like im having a crisis of person like a midlife crisis but im only twenty. in fact newly twenty because i just turned twenty last week. ive been twenty for almost a week now and i dont even know what that means. when i think about it i feel like im about to pass out or sufficate or just sob.