he has a new girlfriend. it just makes me feel even lonelier. its like losing him all over again. but i feel hollow at the same time. like i want it to hurt but my heart doesnt its like the pain is in mind but fuck just idk just fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck i wanna scream at him i wanna hit him. i wanna not care and part of me actually really doesnt. i just want to get to school and start again and like be successful. idk this is just such bullshit.