to sex or not to sex ? that is the question...

my world is perfect again.

my lungs have exploded. i cant breath. he cant resuscitate me.

i cant breath. the thought of being without him has both my lungs collapsing. i dont understand how one minute he seems so happy and the next hes so unhappy. im so confused and apparently so is he.

i am in love with him and i wanna scream it at the top of my lungs. i want to tell him over and over again how much i love him. but i know hes not ready yet and that could only push him away make him more nervous to mess up and want to leave. but i love him. when i have to leave him at night it makes me start to cry. its like walking away from my other half. my love for him courses through my veins. i am so in love with him. i cant stop thinking it i cant stop saying it i cant stop typing it. i am in love more than anything. i am in love and i dont want to stop being in love i dont want to stop thinking it or stop saying it or stop typing it. i could type it forever. i love him i love him i love him i love him i love him i love him i love him ilovehimilovehimilovehimilovehimilovehimilovehimilovehimilovehimilovehimilovehimilovehim its a beautiful rhythm. ilovehimilovehimiloveimilovehimilovehimlovehimlovehimilovehimilovehimilovehim.