so schools over and summers actually going really well. tutoring and babysitting is quite lucrative i already made 90 bucks haha with the end of school came the end of my craziness. i feel soooo much better and im happy now. i finally actually committed to him. thats awesome. hes perfect really actually i cant believe i ever didnt want this just being too scarred and pussy to do it but now im all set and loving being with him. hes just ahmazing and perfect. and hey yzark thanks for the comment cant believe you actually took the time to read my ramblings. with everything being well now i dont have much thoughts to write about. though i have recently realized id rather have 10 friends whom i have an actual relationship with and can count on than having 30 "Friends" who talk behind my back and arent truly there for me. im content with being a nobody and happy rather than be a part of the "popular" crowd and depressed. so thats awesome to realize and im just so much happier. yuppp so thats about it. i dont think ill be writing much more this summer but we will see !

i hate school so much. these next eight days are going to be torture these next three years are going to be torture. i hate it i hate it i hate it. i hate stupid math i hate stupid english i hate stupid english teachers. i hate that it makes me wanna kill myself. i hate that people are dumb. i hate absolutely everything about school. its pointless i wanna get out of it. i dont even know what to write at this point im so overwhelmed by my hatred of school and these feelings.