It's okay, I will do fine without you. Who are you to be questioning my decisions, my actions and my life? You lost the right to do that the minute you decided I wasn't worth your time. So what if I messed around with other guys? It's not like I was bound to you. You were no longer a part of my life. Judging me, accusing and being so angry at me because I wanted to move on with my life and not dwell in the past, dwell on you. You fucking hypocrite you did the same thing too. Being hostile towards me for 'messing' (for lack of a better word) with other people when you were with your ex declaring your love for her to the world. It's okay I get your twisted logic. You're an exception and things are only alright if you say they are. I can't believe I practically grovelled. Actually I did. That's what you wanted me to do and you got it. Now that I think about it, I don't need to. You obviously miss me a hell of a lot to actually take the time to read every single entry i've written in my journals just to use them against me. It's funny because I am sorry. I apologised for my wrong doings that lead to the demise of our friendship, but you couldn't even take it upon yourself to even place some of the blame yourself. I'm not fully responsible for it, neither are you. At least I have the audacity to admit it. Maybe one day you'll actually realise that this whole thing wasn't completely one-sided. You contributed to the downfall just as I did too. As for you spending nearly $80 texting me? I spent over a hundred on you. Sending you things, buying you things, calling cards, topping up my phone to call you, going to internet cafes when my internet broke. Hahaha. I don't give a crap about the money I wasted. You 'accidentally' messaged me. Yeah you accidentally sent a message to BOTH of my accounts. You accidentally typed in my usernames and sent to separate messages haha, what a joke. Also they were blank. You said you thought it might open a door or some crap like that. The way people tend to re-form friendships is with communication. You just demostrated your lack of communication skills. I think all of this was a huge ploy to get me down, because you could clearly see that I was in a good place. Actually I still am and I'm not going to let someone like you ruin that for me. I don't care if you don't believe that I loved you. Because I did. But it's funny because I'm almost ashamed to admit it. I regret it because this is the person you turned out to be. You play the victim role oh-so-very well. You help others and you demand things in return. When you don't get what you want you use your 'helpfulness' and your 'caring' as a way to guilt trip the other person. 'Think about all the times I did blah blah blah" Well you're not the only one that did things. You're not the only one that sacrificed things. You said I was happy when we first started talking and then I started being more and more depressed. It's funny because once we stopped talking things started looking up for me. Hmm.. Somehow I sense a connection here. So I'd just like to say thank you for contacting me again in an attempt to bring me down, but it didn't work. Calling me names doesn't hurt me either. I don't care if you think I'm a bitch. You're not my friend, so your opinion means pretty much nothing to me anymore. Oh yeah, you're so big-headed. Have you stopped to think that those last two entries weren't even about you? Hahaha.. You know I do have other people in my life. I do know other people. I do get mad at other people and I'm allowed to vent about it. I'm glad I got this out I feel much better, and I'm glad you don't want to know me anymore. I don't care if the me you used to know is 'clouded'. You never really knew me anyway. Don't even pretend you did. You knew bits and pieces. Barely anything at all. So to you I'll say goodbye, so long and farewell. Have a fantastic life. I sure know I will enjoy mine to the fullest.