well well well. here we are again. i guess im not really bored i just feel like i have tons to say but no one to say these things to. i dont know where to begin or if anyone at all will even read this. i dont really care but least i get these things down so someone out there can maybe get what im tring to say. because i dont even know. I have friends, I have family, I have Teachers, I have Counsolers. But no one can help me. im too lost to be helped. My best friend doesnt even really know me. I hang out with her at least 3-4 days a week. Every week. and every day going and coming home from school she gives me a ride. and she still doesnt know. well maybe she does know but not the full extent of things and she is too embarrassed to say anything or maybe she thinks i can handle these things myself. and i can i never said my abilities to do so were inadaquete. I found a simply soulution. and ive planed to do so as soon as i get the equipment together.this may not even until im of age to do so. but hopefully i can get my hands on what i need and soon. cuz i tired of waiting. i wish time would just end completely life would be so much easier but when im done doing my job everything wil be okay. hopefully not really sure but im done doing this and trying and pretending that im enjoying what is going on and happening in "my life" I appreciate everything dont get me wrong i do but im done with it.

Well I only joined this to put in my input on a few of my favorite songs. this site rocks. my friend suggested it. im glad i found it. tee hee