today i broke it off with that kid i was talking about in the last entry. shit was just gettin' way too.... weird. i'll update more on this later, cause i got more important news!!11 my uncle bought a vaporizer. dude, craziest. shit. ever. not to mention it was only like the 3rd time i smoked since 6 months ago (probation), NOT TO MENTIONNNN it was some FIRE ass home grown green bud. holy shit man, i was so fucking high i didn't know what to do with myself. plus i had been smashing beers all day and had to go to a funeral right after that. haha it was just all buckwild man, but i had a damn good time! oh man, i'm so happy christmas is over. i had over 20 dinners to go to, i'ma be a fat fuck by new years boyy i'm tellin you. ahhhhhhhhh i'm tired of typing. more to come later, i gotta lotta shit to get off my chest haha. ----> kinda weak that i discovered this band from the VMA's, but they performed this song and i fell in love!

i posted an entry and it was immediately flagged for moderator review?? i feel so ashamed and dirty

^ i'm not gonna lie, i hated that shit when it first came out... it just seemed so, i don't know, annoying. it's starting to grow on me though, ive been pretty into it for the past couple days. we'll see if it's just a fling or not ;) i really don't do much of anything these days. i'm staying at my sister and her boyfriend's apartment but it's pretty cramped here so hopefully i can figure out something soon. also it's TRASHED. i cleaned it up all nice for her birthday on the 15th and it literally didn't even last a day. i'm not a hater or nothing but i extremely dislike living in a dirty place. i'm not OCD, i just get geeked out and clean haha. i can't wait for christmas to finally be over. not that i dislike the holiday cheer or whatever, it's nice, i just fucking hate being all nervous about going to my family functions. they're really high and mighty on their pedastools and i'm a 17 year-old drop out who doesn't attend church (they're pretty religious) or have a job. wow that sounds a lot shittier for me than it feels like. anyways i'm just going through a rough time right now and i don't really look forward to having my family making me feel all salty. this weekend has been buuuuuckfuckinwild man, me and this kid i'm kinda seeing rented a room for two nights and it was just RIDICULOUS how much sex we had. he's a fucking freak man and i can't get enough of it! of course we did have a little help from the white lady and some booze, but i could fuck him sober all day anyways, he's such my favorite :) this morning i literally woke up to him fucking me, that shit was so sexy. ...however, he's got two kids and is also the brother of the guy my best friend is pregnant by. as you will learn, my life is very similar to those who end up on jerry springer and maury. i actually used to go to school with a girl who was on jerry springer a couple years back, hahaha. we watched it in my sociology class :p anyways, yeah. white trash-ass drama is kinda keepin me from getting too serious with him. he's way into me though. which is nice, but i just got out of a horrible 2+ year relationship, well it was only horrible at the end (obviously). i love the kid, but ever since he got back from boot camp and SOI training, he was just a bitter drunk. we definitely had the cops at our apartment wayy too many nights. he stayed with me at my mom's house, then we both moved in with his sister in illinois, got kicked outta there then got out own apartment in illinois. 2 weeks after we moved in together though we broke up, and lemme tell ya sharing a bed with your ex-boyfriend is extremely awkward. however we did have a futon solely for fucking other people, sort of ghetto jersey shore style haha. wow i'm really just rambling here. maybe i'll post again sometime when i actually have something to talk about :p i'll leave you with a video of an asian kid dancing. smoke some fat bowls before you watch it though, it makes it a lot better :D