At once and yet over a period of time, I find myself becoming distant with those whom I once was closest with. First with a close friend of mine, and then with my ex, and now with another close friend, this one with a bit of seniority. This sort of things must come from growing, which I'm coming to accept, but I can still not like it. It is astounding how well days blend into one another now; It used to be that I'd only lose track of the day during summer. Now I lose track of what month it is, while still in school. I guess I've got a rather serious case of senioritis, but since I contracted it in junior year, one would've assumed it'd have morphed into cancer of some sort by now. Speaking of cancer, the chemo, such as it is, seems to be working. it's in remission, and with luck in a few weeks it'll be gone for good. I'll be able to go about life as normal, maybe even better. One can hope, can't one? I think I can. God, I feel like the little engine that could. Only I don't have the drive to use the talent that I have for anything. I was actually talking to one of my teachers today. He said I was intelligent, but stupid as fuck for wasting my intellect by not trying. He's got a point, but it's a bit late for that bit of knowledge. And I'm not going to point the finger at the school system anymore; it's my fault for being an idiot, and wasting my time on worthless doodles and other (somewhat) pointless crap, when I should've been working. I should've done a lot of things with my life so far, but I didn't, and I'm already reaping what I've sown, and I'm only 17. Life oughta be an interesting little trip, methinks. Truth be told I'm doing better, I'm actually working at things, but I really shoulda picked this shit up, instead of in the last semester of my senior year. But hey, regrets never really helped anyone. With that, I think I'm going to end my little rant. I'm going to end, like a friend of mine's does, with a quote. "Always had the feeling I could never be the villain because the villain in the films is always backlit." - Scroobius Pip