You don't know my name
You don't know anything about me
I try to play nice
I want to be in your game
The things that you say
You may think I never hear about them
But word travels fast
I'm telling you to your face
I'm standing here behind your back

You don't know who it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend
On the outside looking in

If you could read my mind
You might even see
More than meets the eye
And you've been all wrong
Not who you think I am
You've never given me a chance

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend
On the outside looking in

Well, I'm tired of staying at home
I'm bored and all alone
I'm sick of wasting all my time

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend
On the outside looking in

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend
On the outside looking

I'm a social reject. I don't feel loved. I have tried so hard to fit in and I get nowhere.

I just wanna end this. So it will be less painful. I couldn't care less about others.

Today's just another day of feeling lonely.

And the worst part is, it was the last day of high school, prizegiving day, and nothing happened to me.

 I know a girl who's interested in me. Not that pretty, but a nice way to hone my player skil ... after exams over.

 I've been to the mini homepage of the girl I used to have a crush on. It seems she might have a crush on me still, or maybe on some other guy out of my picture. I don't care anyway, I was just curious about how she was doing just like other friends I haven't seen in a while.

I need to study damnit!

Heard my parents arguing in the morning, mum being pissed off at my dad

which reminded me of my former crush who was found out to be a complete bitch. Not that I'm hating my mum. I don't like my dad, for being a failure in life, for being a wuss and being like a child.

Had a rough day today too. I have no one to lean on, everyone just wants to eat me.

I can still remember the girl from tennis lesson calling me, 'you are full of shit'

Sure it's no big deal. But I find this an effective way to humiliate someone.

Now I'm not talking about my parents. But

I just wanna slit her throat.

And stab his face.

One day, I will find a way

 This exam is making me insane that it's been so long since I have been hanging out with friends.

 I already gave up on scholarship, and I don't know if I'll make it to entry requirement for Engineering at uni.My parents gave up on me and so did my teachers.

 Well, hopefully I'll get in and everything will be OK. I'm so looking forward to meeting up with new ppl and smoking weeds after exam.

 My mum was talking about this Korean girl who won a full year scholarship from Auckland uni. I really hate being compared like that. I mean I was just a shy, quiet kid who was anti social and spoke broken English but she probably had a better start since her father is a churchman.

Another day of feeling shit about my life again. Well it feels better now as I'm listening to Under the Bridge.