So...how's it going?? I'm so damned exhausted it sucks. I've been running around town all day trying to get things sorted out and I finally got a chance to relax. From 7 AM to roughly 1:30 I haven't been able to relax but I got my shit done. I feel like dropping dead right now but I'll probably have something else to do later!! FUCK!!!!

I can hardly sleep anymore. These dreams I've been having re-enforce the fact that I am alone and they seem to be taunting me. If I couldn't dream at night I'd be sleeping so much better than I am now! I've tried everything. Warm milk, alcohol, sleeping pills. Nothing works. I just sit up till morning listening to music and writing. I don't know what anything means or what I'm looking for. Everything that wakes me up has a theme of missed connections; but I'm not looking for closeness. I've tried that before and it doesn't work.