fuck. I don't get why i feel this way. i can't even explain the feeling. It's a sickening feeling. I don't understand it I wish i had someone to talk to. its like i've lost my good friends.The people i've felt close to just cut off. Its been that way for a while. i just don't say anything. maybe thats my problem. i let things go. i dont know why, i'm very opinionated. I guess when i'm hurt, i keep to myself, i don't like showing people pain. I feel like this journal thing is helping me. in a wierd way, it's like a friend. Always a blank page for me to spill out. Is that strange? fuckk. Well, if your reading this, I'm sane. I wish i could go jogging, that always comforts me. Maybe sweating it out is the key..I don't know but when i put those earbuds and running shoes on, I feel..un contained. I control how fast i want to go, which direction I want to go in. Maybe it's that feeling of power. Well, i think im going to go tune out the world in my room, with earbuds on.That calms me down. Until another day my friend. thanks for listening. ~Just another lost teen