Its Friday, so i guess i shoukd be excited but im not. I has a really bad realization last night, and thats the fact that im not happy. Even though the wish i made

He has a amazing voice. I know thats a weird way to start off, but i noticed that his voice comforts me. At any rate, my weekend was uh interesting, i guess. anyway g2g

happy but mad at the same time. I know that sounds confusing but so far thats the way my day has been. When i woke up, i was in the best mood ever, but then i came to school and things changed. Pinecone is acting weird, he seems like hes sad yet he claims that hes doing good. Then, One of my friends had a little talk with me about kissing his girlfriend. OK, i can understand if he got ,about it of i was straight or bi but um how jealous can you get? Eh, I want to talk to Shelby, i wish we had classes together or at least lunch. I miss yesmine, although ive only mentioned it once to my friends, i might move to New York with her around the end of this year, i understand that itll break my moms heart but i need to go and try to find myself out. I know that sounds weird and emotional, but my final decision hasnt been made yet.

My weekend was fucking horrible. Thing is, i can sit here and bitch about and it wont make anything better. So in other news, i have a boyfriend, yay me. His name is well it starts with a C, lol. Drea, im mad you havent sent me a message on here. Id sent you one but i cant remember your name on here. First period is boring and i finished most of my work. Damn, my hands are frozen this sucks. This weekend, i realized something really great about Alex, he was the first person i ever fell in love with. Eh, anyway that was weird, g2g. P.S.- Drea, have you noticed that my typing skills have improved?

I was reading through a few of my old journal entries and i relized that i have matured a lot. Now dont be fooled, im still moving from bobblehead in 5 months, but im not bitchie and annoying as i used to be. Ive also learned to be more appreciative and that rather than being afraid i should be excited. well g2g

I got my answer from Damien and it was a no. Youd think i be very pissed pff or crying but actually im ok. Well i wont lie, yesterday i cried my eyes out and thought about doing some other things but thanks to Ryan i didn't. By the way Ryan is one of my best friends, he's so amazing. Actually i want to date him but thats another story. I don't believe it is wise to use peoples names on here but hopefully it wont trigger anything. Anyway hey ladrea/le-a. Ill write later. :)

hey journal im in 1st period bored as crap. well guess whos in love again, me. his name is damien and hes the most amaziing person in my life. i feel new when im with him. i cant even describe the way i feel about him. Damien is just abosolutly perfect and i love him with all my heart. Id give my life for him if i had too. Yes i do love him more than i ever loved alex, well actually i dont want to say that just yet lol. Just know that i love him