That's how I feel, blank. Like I'm not even me anymore or more so the fact that I don't wanna be me I want to be someone else someone who's life isn't full of bullshik (yes I put the k at the end on purpose). I'm vexed infuriated fustrated aggrevated and just a whole lot of other things which is the reason I just put... I just want to get away I want to go to africa and/or asia. Learn about my culture just do something to where I won't be miserable. Then again on the other hand its pratically impossible to satisfy me so I'm not sure where I want to go or what I want to do maybe I just want to lay down in grass(empty of any kind of bug) and just look at the sky look at how time passes by when I'm actually relaxing. Well anyway I guess I'm about too go look up some music ill journal whenever it calls me again...

I'm not sure about anything anymore. I'm just so confused about so many things. What does my future hold? Will I still be with joey? I want too be I love him so much he's amazing but its just that we have our extrme differences which dosent bother me I just hate that he can't tell me his feelings about anything

I'm so happy I have someone that actually cares about me. I love him so much he's one of the greatest things that ever happened too me. I'm so glad to be with someone again baby I love you now and as long as we date which I hope will last a long time. Who knows maybe a year and eight months from now me and him will be just like brock and drea haha I wish ill journal later

I'm back lol. Actually I've had my phone I never had to give it up but anyway that's a long story. Well um I wanna type a real entry but right now I'm outraged so that's impossible. But this is all I have to say. 1. Ill be moving soon. 2. These next few months will probably be hell for me so ill journal more often. 3. I have a boyfriend now yay and I love him to death anyway I guess I'll journal within the next few hours most likely after I talk to drea so um ttyl :]