Sometimes life can get a little to unpredictable….and I guess that’s a good thing….but then again its not. I get depressed really easily and when I do it takes a lot to get me out of a rut…and I can bury myself into a rut for a long time and not come out of it I understand people care for me and I care for them and what not….my ruts stay ruts and they wont go away….music helps me and when it helps I some times go deeper into my rut and when I go deeper into my rut I like to cut people off., and that’s how I lose friendships, and it pisses me the fuck off to no degree. I like who I am and I like who I surround myself with and I know that no matter what ill have friends but sometimes friends even best friends piss me off. Just like my brother he pisses me off because he doesn’t give a rat’s ass about anything any fucking more, and if I talk to him tonight then I think im going to say the wrong thing and we won’t be brothers any more. All because of his attitude towards me, his mom keeps telling him over and over again to get ride of it and what does he do…….not a damn thing. His mom is trying to help him, not hurt him. I’ve known him for about 3 going on 4 years and I know that his attitude is the only things keeping him from doing the certain things that he wants to do. He has goals but there stupid ones.
I always hate doing things like this only because it hurts my heart to tell the damn truth to everyone even bands and friends that have no idea what’s going on. But I have to do it because it’s getting to the point where if I don’t say something then I might as well just drop out of school and leave Virginia. Why? BECAUSE THIS SHIT IS PISSING ME OFF. I’ve been more pissed then I have been in months. All because of this stupid shit.
Yea I get pissed but I keep it to myself and if I had a girlfriend I would tell her but since I don’t, I can’t. Some times music relives my pain and when it does I am happier then fucking ever and when it don’t then im scarred, I’m scarred of losing the friends that I have come to know and care for and sometimes losing them can hurt more then losing a lover. Why? Losing friends is like losing a part of yourself. And when that happens you tend to try something that can replace that friend/friends. That has happened to me so I found smoking and that was bad enough, then I found weed. It was bad enough I was smoking cigarettes, because I was in chorus at Woodrow Wilson high school in Portsmouth. I lost myself my freshman year and I found what I am today a perfect Juggalo/metal head/emotional/hard core short tempered mosh pit psychopathic Samoan named Danny. You might think your life is fucked up. Think again. I put a kid in a coma for 6 months because he called my mother a slut. I got a slap on the wrist from the cops because I was young.
Life is full of surprising twists and turns but you only put yourself through them and you have to go through them no one can make you.
Sometimes life can get a little to unpredictable….and I guess that’s a good thing….but then again its not. I get depressed really easily and when I do it takes a lot to get me out of a rut…and I can bury myself into a rut for a long time and not come out of it I understand people care for me and I care for them and what not….my ruts stay ruts and they wont go away….music helps me and when it helps I some times go deeper into my rut and when I go deeper into my rut I like to cut people off., and that’s how I lose friendships, and it pisses me the fuck off to no degree. I like who I am and I like who I surround myself with and I know that no matter what ill have friends but sometimes friends even best friends piss me off. Just like my brother he pisses me off because he doesn’t give a rat’s ass about anything any fucking more, and if I talk to him tonight then I think im going to say the wrong thing and we won’t be brothers any more. All because of his attitude towards me, his mom keeps telling him over and over again to get ride of it and what does he do…….not a damn thing. His mom is trying to help him, not hurt him. I’ve known him for about 3 going on 4 years and I know that his attitude is the only things keeping him from doing the certain things that he wants to do. He has goals but there stupid ones.
I always hate doing things like this only because it hurts my heart to tell the damn truth to everyone even bands and friends that have no idea what’s going on. But I have to do it because it’s getting to the point where if I don’t say something then I might as well just drop out of school and leave Virginia. Why? BECAUSE THIS SHIT IS PISSING ME OFF. I’ve been more pissed then I have been in months. All because of this stupid shit.
Yea I get pissed but I keep it to myself and if I had a girlfriend I would tell her but since I don’t, I can’t. Some times music relives my pain and when it does I am happier then fucking ever and when it don’t then im scarred, I’m scarred of losing the friends that I have come to know and care for and sometimes losing them can hurt more then losing a lover. Why? Losing friends is like losing a part of yourself. And when that happens you tend to try something that can replace that friend/friends. That has happened to me so I found smoking and that was bad enough, then I found weed. It was bad enough I was smoking cigarettes, because I was in chorus at Woodrow Wilson high school in Portsmouth. I lost myself my freshman year and I found what I am today a perfect Juggalo/metal head/emotional/hard core short tempered mosh pit psychopathic Samoan named Danny. You might think your life is fucked up. Think again. I put a kid in a coma for 6 months because he called my mother a slut. I got a slap on the wrist from the cops because I was young.
Life is full of surprising twists and turns but you only put yourself through them and you have to go through them no one can make you.
My life is pretty fucked up, you cant even image.