i forgot to write everything for that song; silly me. the song is Deep Inside Of You by: Third Eye Blind http://www.playlist.com/user/6687389 that would be my playlist. check it out; amazing songs. trust me.

lala. it has been forever since i wrote; sorta depressing. life...sucks? i lost one of my friends; over a stupid fight. i obviously wasn't welcomed to voice my very important opinions. and my input on the situation was not welcomed. which then led to a crazy outrage that was completly avoidable. i guess she's not mature enough to handle a conversation of that extent. i tried to apologize, i really did. but she degraded me; picked out my flaws and shoved them in my face. i dont deserve that, no one does. i miss her; we were good friends. enh, but on the other side. yesterday was mine and my boyfriends 2 month. so i was pretty excited about all that. god, i love him. he's the best thing thats happened to me. so cliche; im aware. but it means so much more when its the truth. what else, what else. i got a job; not excited about that really. and i babysit. three kids. yeah! three. i dont know how she trusts me with those boys. my ex friend, the one i was talking about previous to this; she wouldn't let me around the children she babysat because of the things i said. i guess i dont really pay attention to what i say before i actually say it. i always think about it afterwards. i should probably stop that. but i mean; for the most part, they're pretty good kids. and volleyball starts today. ugh, what a nightmare. its from 8:30-9:30 in the morning for conditioning then from 5-8 for practice; everyday so i dont know if i can do it; cause of work. PLUS! i have tech. electronics baby! yesss; im soo excited. i hope everyones nice to me. im sure i'll be the only girl; cause for orientation me and my friend (whom i forced to go with me :] ) were the only girls in the class. so yeah; tech starts the 27th then school starts the 2nd. not looking forward to any of that but anways; as for the song, of course. i had to do a Third Eye Blind song. they're my favorite :] When we met light was shed Thoughts free flow you said you've got something Deep inside of you A wind chime voice sound Sway of your hips round rings true Echo's deep inside of you These secret garden beams changed my life so it seems Fall breeze blows outside, I don't bring stride My thoughts are warm, and they go deep inside of you Oh yeah And I never felt alone Alright, alone... alone Till I met you Friends say I've changed I don't listen cause I live to be Deep inside of you Slide of her dress, shouts in darkness I'm so alive I'm Deep inside of you You said boy make girl feel good But still... deep inside... still I've never felt alone Till I met you I'm alright on my own And then I met you And I'd know what to do if I just knew what's coming I would change myself if I could I'd walk with my own people if I could find them, And I'd say that I'm sorry to you, I'm sorry to you, and I don't want to call you, But then I want to call you cause I don't want to crush you, But I feel like crushing you And it's true I took for granted you were with me I breathe by your looks and you look right through me But we were broken and didn't know it But we were broken and didn't know it But we were broken and didn't know it But we were broken and didn't know it Right... oh, what's right? Something's gone you withdraw And I'm not strong like before I was Deep inside of you I can go nowhere I burn candles and stare at a ghost Deep inside of you And some great need in me, starts to bleed I've lost myself there's nothing left It's all gone Deep inside of you Deep inside of you D