i forgot to write everything for that song; silly me. the song is Deep Inside Of You by: Third Eye Blind http://www.playlist.com/user/6687389 that would be my playlist. check it out; amazing songs. trust me.

lala. it has been forever since i wrote; sorta depressing. life...sucks? i lost one of my friends; over a stupid fight. i obviously wasn't welcomed to voice my very important opinions. and my input on the situation was not welcomed. which then led to a crazy outrage that was completly avoidable. i guess she's not mature enough to handle a conversation of that extent. i tried to apologize, i really did. but she degraded me; picked out my flaws and shoved them in my face. i dont deserve that, no one does. i miss her; we were good friends. enh, but on the other side. yesterday was mine and my boyfriends 2 month. so i was pretty excited about all that. god, i love him. he's the best thing thats happened to me. so cliche; im aware. but it means so much more when its the truth. what else, what else. i got a job; not excited about that really. and i babysit. three kids. yeah! three. i dont know how she trusts me with those boys. my ex friend, the one i was talking about previous to this; she wouldn't let me around the children she babysat because of the things i said. i guess i dont really pay attention to what i say before i actually say it. i always think about it afterwards. i should probably stop that. but i mean; for the most part, they're pretty good kids. and volleyball starts today. ugh, what a nightmare. its from 8:30-9:30 in the morning for conditioning then from 5-8 for practice; everyday so i dont know if i can do it; cause of work. PLUS! i have tech. electronics baby! yesss; im soo excited. i hope everyones nice to me. im sure i'll be the only girl; cause for orientation me and my friend (whom i forced to go with me :] ) were the only girls in the class. so yeah; tech starts the 27th then school starts the 2nd. not looking forward to any of that but anways; as for the song, of course. i had to do a Third Eye Blind song. they're my favorite :] When we met light was shed Thoughts free flow you said you've got something Deep inside of you A wind chime voice sound Sway of your hips round rings true Echo's deep inside of you These secret garden beams changed my life so it seems Fall breeze blows outside, I don't bring stride My thoughts are warm, and they go deep inside of you Oh yeah And I never felt alone Alright, alone... alone Till I met you Friends say I've changed I don't listen cause I live to be Deep inside of you Slide of her dress, shouts in darkness I'm so alive I'm Deep inside of you You said boy make girl feel good But still... deep inside... still I've never felt alone Till I met you I'm alright on my own And then I met you And I'd know what to do if I just knew what's coming I would change myself if I could I'd walk with my own people if I could find them, And I'd say that I'm sorry to you, I'm sorry to you, and I don't want to call you, But then I want to call you cause I don't want to crush you, But I feel like crushing you And it's true I took for granted you were with me I breathe by your looks and you look right through me But we were broken and didn't know it But we were broken and didn't know it But we were broken and didn't know it But we were broken and didn't know it Right... oh, what's right? Something's gone you withdraw And I'm not strong like before I was Deep inside of you I can go nowhere I burn candles and stare at a ghost Deep inside of you And some great need in me, starts to bleed I've lost myself there's nothing left It's all gone Deep inside of you Deep inside of you D

Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected And I can tell that I've been moving in so slow Don't let it throw you off too far Cause I'll be running right behind you Could this be out of line? To say you're the only one breaking me down like this You're the only one I would take a shot on Keep me hanging on so contagiously Oh, when I'm around you I'm predictable Cause I believe in loving you at first sight I know it's crazy but I'm hoping to To take a hold of you Oh you're everything I'm wanting Come to think of it, I'm aching On account of my transgression Will you welcome this confession? okay, this song is amazinggg

so, im listening to music. as i do for 90% of my life. and i was reading the lyrics i had on here for Critical Acclaim and i realized; they are terribly wrong. i got them off this site, and i've realized that most lyrics on here are wrong. so, these are the correct lyrics. i hope. some parts are debateable. Shh be quiet, you might piss somebody off Like me motherfucker, you've been at it for too long While you feed off others insecurities You stand in front of me and bite the hand that feeds (Self-righteousness is wearing thin) Lies inside your head your bestfriend (Heart bleeds but not for fellow man) Broken glass, your fake reflection I've had enough its time for something real Don't respect the words you're speaking Gone too far, a clone So how does it feel to know that someones kid in the heart of america Has blood on their hands, fighting to defend your rights So you can maintain the lifestyle that insults this family's existance Well, where I'm from we have a special salute we aim high in the air Towards all those pompous assholes who spend their days pointing fingers Fuck you Shh quiet, might piss somebody off Like the heartbeat of this country when antagonized too long I'll be damned if you count me in as part of your generous hypocrisy Collecting enemies (Tabloid gossip queen, worthless man) There's no need for us to bury you (Selfish agenda, once again) Right this way, you've dug your own grave I've had enough its time for something real Don't respect the words you're speaking Gone too far, a clone All the way from the east to the west We've got this high society looking down on this very foundation Constantly reminding us that our actions are the cause of all their problems Pointing the fingers in every direction Blaming their own nation for who wins elections They've never contributed a fucking thing to the country they love to criticize Excuse the obscene, ignore the untrue Depictions we see, try and get through Admitting mistakes can't hurt I'm not the last but I sure ain't the first Shh quiet, might piss somebody off (Self-righteousness is wearing thin) Lies inside your head your bestfriend (Heart bleeds but not for fellow man) Broken glass, your fake reflection I've had enough its time for something real Don't respect these words you speak You've gone too far, a clone :] D

uhm, yesterday i went fourwheeling!! im not gonna lie, it was pretty exciting. it had rained the previous day, so there were monsterous amounts of puddles and mud! uhhh, i loved it! at first i was pissed cause my white shoes got dirty and they were like $80 and i bought them with my own money so they're officially brown :] then, i was driving and i felt this pinch and i was like oh it will go away but it didn't. so i pull my shirt down and theres a freakin bee in my shirt! yeah, it stung my boob! XD stupid. today sucked though. i did absoulutly nothing. nope, nothing at all. i slept for an hour. i ate.... i went to the bathroom a couple times. thats the extent of my day. you're on the edge of your seat, i know. nanananana; i feel like dancing. ohhhh, i got a new screen name today :] cause i was bored, and i got tired of looking at my old one. love 3eb or die that's it. cause i wanted it to be your my herox but that was already taken :[ and then i wanted it to be something with Third Eye Blind in it, cause i loooove them. but it wouldn't fit with anything i tried, so i shortened it to 3eb i laugh at my life. I know you’ll be there To see the tables turning Wake up tomorrow And watch the bridges burning i can see I can see it in your eyes I can feel I can feel it in my mind I don’t care I don’t care if you realize What you see What you see in my eyes I’m over me being under you I’m breaking free I’m breaking through I’ve overcome all I’m underneath I can finally stand I can finally breathe Remember when we First had the thought of living A perfect picture But I did all the giving Gave up my passions To try to make you happy The joke is over And I’ll do all the laughing Over and Under by: Egypt Central that is honestly the best song i've heard in a long time. i love the song; i love the band. but they can't replace Third Eye Blind :] but egypt central is amazing, you should definitely listen to their songs. you can hate me if you dont like their music. D

blahh; we dont have school anymore :[ i guess its good, but school always gave me something to do. plus i got to see my friends everyday. but my friends are currently mad at me. they're always mad at me... and i never do anything. but if one person is mad, everyone else gets mad. im really tired of it; they're so full of drama. enh, oh well. at least my boyfriend isn't mad at me. i think i've lost all my intellegence. cause i cant use big words around him :] lol they "hurt his head" he's silly, but i can use big words around him. so, im watching Talledega nights. im pretty sure i just spelled that wrong. but im sure you know what i mean. i love will ferrell :] well its pretty early in the day.... so i'll probably end up writing again later. since i havn't in a while. maybe i'll look up some big words in the dictionary to sound smart :] (Shh, quiet, you might piss somebody off) Like me motherfucker you’ve been at it for too long. While you feed off all those insecurities, you stand in front of me and bite the hand that feeds. Self righteousness is wearing thin (lies inside your head, your best friend) I’ll bleed but not for fellow man (broken glass, you’ll fade reflection) Telling them it’s all for something real Don’t respect the words your speaking Gone too far So, how does it feel to know that someone’s kid in the heart of America has blood on their hands fighting to defend your rights so you can maintain the lifestyle that insults his family’s existence Well where I'm from we have a special salute waved high in the air towards all those pompous assholes who spend their days pointing fingers. Fuck you... (Shh, quiet, you might piss somebody off) Like the heartbeat of this country when antagonized too long I’ll be damned if you count me in as part of your generous hypocrisy; collected and amazed. Tabloid gossip we roll as real (There’s no need for us to bury you) Selfish agenda, once again (right this way, you dug your own grave) Telling them it’s all for something real Don’t respect the words your speaking Gone too far All the way from the east to the west we got this high society looking down on their very foundation. Constantly reminding us that our actions are the cause of all their problems. Pointing their fingers in every direction. Blaming their own nation for who wins elections. They never contributed a fucking thing to the country they love to criticize. Excuse the obscene Ignore the untrue Depictions we see Try and get through And many mistakes can hurt I’m not the last, but I sure ain’t the first! Self righteousness is wearing thin (lies inside your head, your best friend) I’ll bleed but not for fellow man (broken glass, you’ll fade reflection) Telling them it’s all for something real Don’t respect the words your speaking Gone too far critical acclaim by: Avenged Sevenfold

im actually not angry :] im actually very happy je t'amie mon ami!

today was fantastic :] until 2 hours ago, of course. i can just never have a good day, ever. the guy i like; yeah well i was talking to him today. and he was upset about fighting with his girlfriend and plus he had a headache. he hid it at first, but it was obvious that there was something wrong, its not hard to tell. i dont know his girlfriend. but in my personal opinion, i think she's a bitch. i'm not trying to be mean about it at all, but i dont think she deserves him. i mean, im sure he would disagree, but she cant expect him to be perfect, right? ha..try telling that to her. he's amazing, i wish he knew that. he thinks so low of himself, i think its because of her she doesnt treat him well. and she tells him what to do. i definitely dont aprove. but thats not my decision, and he tells me he likes me and that i make him happy. i just wish he would realize how much i really like him, and how much better he would be without her. i dont know, maybe im wrong. maybe i just like him so much that im blinded but anyway. i made a list, of reasons i shouldnt have a boyfriend 1.) im different when i have a boyfriend 2.) whoever im with i probably wont marry 3.) i hate the world

i'm just one of those people that trip ^ the stairs :]

I remember the times we spent together on those drives We had a million questions all about our lives and when we got to New York everything felt right I wish you were here with me tonight I remember the days we spent together were not enough and it used to feel like dreamin' except we always woke up Never thought not having you here now would hurt so much Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up I need your loving hands to come and pick me up And every night I miss you I can just look up and know the stars are holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight I remember the time you told me about when you were eight And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait I remember the car you were last seen in and the games we would play All the times we spilled our coffees and stayed out way too late I remember the time you told me about your Jesus and how not to look back even if no one believes us When it hurt so bad sometimes not having you here... I sing, "Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up I need your loving hands to come and pick me up And every night I miss you I can just look up and know the stars are holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight" I sing, "Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up I need your loving hands to come and pick me up And every night I miss you I can just look up and know the stars are holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight" >thats mine and his song... his mom died 2 years from today i wish i was better with words, i wish i could comfort him in a better way and...i think i might be in love with him, but i shouldn't. he has a girlfriend. and i'm definitely not the kind of person to ruin a relationship. ugh, i wish he wasn't so darn likeable. but anyway; today was okay. i got a nasty papercut, and i tripped a couple times. tipical day.... i have an 85% in health, and i fail every one of my tests...lol weird, i don't know how i have a B and we're on the drug unit, and, of course, i get crack cocaine. personally i wanted like PCP or Roofie. cause there's a really funny video about Roofie. but if anyone is reading this, go to youtube and type in "breaking the social norm" and watch that video. it's really funny. its the one where at first he's dancing in a purple kangeroo or some animal suit. it's really funny. so ive started to realize the many flaws in people. and i think that's why i'm like i am. because so many things bother me. i wish people were smarter. this girl that i have to sit next to in class, her stupidity bothers me. a lot. and she does things for attention. i hate that. now a days, it seems like a lot bothers me. i can't even talk to my mom without fighting with her, just something about talking to her makes me mad. oh, i don't know. maybe its just me....