well, right off the bat i'd have jessica rabbit. so i just found out asher roth is gunna be at bamboozle :D which has led me to posting the bands playing why, you ask? stfu, why not. DAY 1 - MAY 2ND main headliner - fall out boy [really? GTFO] second headliners - third eye blind [lmfao, not even kidding] the get up kids cobra starship [dance party on three - 1,2,3!] all time low metro station [fucking kill me, please] new found glory ASHER ROTH

so this past friday, i went to my first local show in monnnnths - since like december or something it was so worth it, holy shit it was one band we used to see all the time, 2 we've never seen, and one we discovered in december at the last show i seriously, seriously urge you to listen to the downtowns amber and i know the drummer, but we've never seen them play they are unreal a little folk, a little americana, a little rock blended til smooth and served chilled they were just so undeniably.... cool from their fancy boots and grandpa sweaters, all the way to the 40 of malt liquor and the bottle of jd they were drinking throughout their set there was this one point where the lead singer (francis?) broke a string on his guitar or something, and the rest of the band just played a crazy amazing instrumental while he fixed it... the guitar player is fucking incredible they lowered the house lights, [and by 'lowered the house lights', i mean someone flicked the light switch on the wall in the tiny little room we were in hahahaha], and put on these blue spotlights all around. the song itself was so fucking trippy i felt like i was under water swaying, back and forth in slow motion floating and spinning at the bottom of the ocean i don't think i blinked once, i was so fixated and intrigued at one point, the guitar player (chris?) played by scraping his strings back and forth against the mic stand ugh, they were so good check out the other bands too most def: rumbo tumbo the hot and heavy the riverwinds the riverwinds are the ones that we've seen about 60 times they even got to play bamboozle last year nicest dudes, they always thank us for coming out not to mention they're all painfully attractive they too are specccccctacular make ya wanna drink a beer and drive around with your friends, yelling and singing out the windows into the cool summer night air hell yes

flightless bird, american mouth by iron & wine things are going well in my life and have been for a while now and yet, only today did i realize how painfully, painfully alone i feel and have felt and am i saw him again that wonderful beautiful ex boyfriend i've spoke about before i wanted to hang around and get to talk to him but i had to leave that would happen he's still my one wish god, this fucking hole is making it hard to breathe

an eluardian instance - of montreal i found a bunch of things i wrote last year and before they were written on random pages of unused notebooks saved under ambiguous titles on my computer stuck in between papers and books on my book shelves mixed in with old math papers in old folders i think i'll put them up here starting with this: october 8, 2008 1254am have you ever closed your eyes to go to sleep, and seen the different shades of darkness? these different shades and patterns move around inside your eyelids they deepen and lighten, shrink and grow, twist, turn, slide, wiggle, flash, fade, morph and it's distracting and it makes you uneasy and panicked it's like an itch you can't scratch a peice of hair in the back of your throat sleep is no longer an option first priority is to stop. make everything stop moving STOP IT! SHUT UP! STOP DOING THAT! your brain is in overdrive. you want to claw at your eyes until they stop throwing a kalidescope in front of you a kalidescope of black you never realize how many degrees of nothing there really are all your life, you think there is nothing to see on the reverse side of your eyelids. and now... this. you toss and turn, now unable to even close your eyes, for the restlessness is too much to bear and it's scary. you're scared, because you don't understand. you're delerious from the sleep deprivation, and you're going completely insane. but after all the convincing that it's all in your head, and you're just tired - you're still scared. because if you can't find peace and stillness under the safety of sleep, behind the comfort of your own eyelids, then where can you?