If you haven't already listened to City And Colour, do it asap. 'Waiting' is brilliant. So I really had nothing of great importance to say. It's just more for myself than anything. It's what I want to do this year. I feel so lame by doing this, oh my god. But whatever, I'm already here. - I'm going to actually do my homework. - I'm going to manage my time!!!!! - I'm going to go to bed a at a sane hour. - I'm NOT going to procrastinate. - I'm going to find myself a good, worth it boy. - I'm going to relax, and not let stupid issues stress me out. - I'm going to juggle school, sports, work, and friends. - I'm going to hand everything in on time. - I'm going to do everything I can to get scholarships. Idk why I felt the need to type that out, but it's time to turn over a new leaf. I mean, I'm in my most important year of high school. It's about time I get my shit together. Good grades always come relatively easy for me. But I'm actually going to work at it this year. I'm going to do anything and everything I can to make sure that after graduation, I'm headed off somewhere bigger and better than Manalapan, NJ. I'm not letting my paranoia, ridiculous stress levels, procrastination, etc etc get in my way. Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeah, so that's really all I needed to say I guess. I'll check back if anything good happens...

Rocket Man by Elton John. Timeless. Get the cover of it by Jason Mraz too. Where to begin. Too much to say, really. I don't even know where I left off in my life last time I wrote. All I know is that nothing's really changed. School's school. Field hockey's field hockey. My family is still ridiculous. My friends are still... I don't know, up and down, I guess. I still frustrate and tear myself to peices. Oh, download the song On Your Porch by The Format. But be prepared to cry. I met someone potentially interesting last night. He's Christian. Well, so am I. But he's really, really religious. Bass player in a Christian band, goes to church almost every night, has a Christian ringtone. And yet, he's a totally normal teenager - He curses, he watches good movies, he listens to good music, and he eats PB&J with the crusts cut off. As for me, I have some mixed feelings about religion. I don't like the idea of being told what to believe. When I had CCD classes, I would be yelled at if I questioned anything they told us. "Go pray for forgiveness. Pray, and you'll find your answers and your faith." Well, I prayed. Nothing happened. So much of the things the Bible tells me strikes me as... iffy. I don't have faith, and I don't really understand how people can blindly be like "Oh yeah, that's all true. Jesus really did this, and this is what we should believe and follow." How can you trust something so wholeheartedly with no proof of it? I'd like to talk to this boy. Maybe he can help me understand. Because it might be nice to have something to believe in for once. There's really not much else I want to cover. Nothing of any substantially interesting content, that is. So, I'll leave it at that. Hopefully I'll be back with a more.... riveting entry sometime soon. But I highly, highly doubt it.