I dont exactly know what to write. Im really bored right now, and i just want to see my boyfriend, whom i hung out with in days. It pretty much sucks... we've been dating for over a year.. and things just seem to be getting.. dull? Its not that im bored.. its just, i dont feel the same... but I really do love him... a lot. I dont know what to do about my friends, they're all fucked up in their own way, that or they've moved on. One of my friends is seriously like..addicted to crack now. its messed up.I havnt seen her for like, 4 weeks, and she WAS a really good friend. yet again, ive lost another friend to somthing i have no control over. I dont understand how she could allow herself to do somthing like that.. is just fucked up, especially since she just got out of rehab. I really wish she didnt make the choices she makes. I dont want to be known as the only friend the Crack Addicted Slut has. I know thats a little harsh.. but she brought it on herself. i actually do miss her though. It seemed at times she was the only one i could talk to that actually listened to what i had to say.