3:46 P.M. Thursday. Well hay everyone.... oh yea the title...i got to go to a band concert. Yea i'm going to be in it!!!!!!!! HAHA Actually it's the high school concert band lol... i tricked ya'll....prolly did'nt oh well anyways... Yea my band concert is tonight i play he bass clarinet during concert season and play clarinet during marching... I'm in concert band but the better one is symphonic... i think they playin to....those are the good half of the band lol well...i guess we are all ok..we got 3rd in state for marching season...so we aint that bad. Oh yea i dont know if Austin and kayla broke up cause i didnt see em walking together..and im hoping they didnt and i'm hoping they did.... But i really hope they didnt cause that means he could be sad and i dont want that! ok i gota go!!!!to the bathroom!!!!! so bye...

3:58 P.M. Wednesday Welp today i had to take the U.S. History SAT today. It was really hard and nuthin was on there that our teacher said there would be.But it took about 2 in a half hours to take...well not me....but i had to wait for other ppl to get dune. and i'm not sayin i'm the smartest i was prolly the dumbest in the room..lol. But that might have been the one time i would want to take my medicine. cause i didnt and i couldnt focus at all!!!!! oh well....i think i might have passed it...but i dont find out till like September...so..... well i'm gone bye.

3:40 p.m Tuesday Hay everyone....well i'm still trying to get over Austin having a girlfriend...but ima try and not talk about him on here cause i'm sure it can get annoying... I watch my little brother Preston(6 yrs. old) after school. idk why i have to cause he dont listen to me....well we have neighbors and they have like 4 little kids his age that just moved there....and i did something Sunday that i shouldn't have......it's just hard to control myself....well...this fat kid who's like 10 and he was pushin his brothers and sisters down and chasing Preston and he came up to me and started punching me in the arm and it hurt!!!! well anyways then he picked up a shovel and started swinging it at me.....and so i pick up this plastic sword holder and swung it at him and it hit him in the face...whoops..... but i didn't mean to hit him tho....anyways i got in trouble but he told them i "punched" him but i didnt!!! Whatever i ain't really worried about it but i do feel bad about it. Well i'm bored bye.

3:52 Monday Ok maybe the title was a little over dramatic but today was Horrible!!! well only till like 30 seconds after the bell for school to be over rung. Ok well let me tell you what happened. Austin you remember him right...the love of my life and once was i the love of his....well i was walking right behind him after the bell cause we have 7th period together and we both go out the front doors of the school...except i turn walking behind the library and he keeps walking toward the freshman building to go to his locker....well my best friend Jennifer caught up with me and was talking and i glanced over and saw Austin with his arm around this girl named Kayla c. and i stopped right there and my mouth started to tremble and i covered my mouth and my eyes started waterin up and my friend is like what happened and she looked over and was tellin me who it was and stuff and she says she aint nuthin but a whore...but and it just made me so sad and i walked to my grandpa's truck cause i have yet to get my license to lazy....anyways when i got home i was so mad at myself cause i keep thinkin all this time that he would ask me back out and everything would be normal...but.... Cause it happened before and he asked me back out in 13 hours..well i punched the wall but dont worry it didnt do any damage...ima smoke again... i aint had a cig in like a month but i need to calm my nerves....and i know what you thinkin that he prolly broke up wit me cause im crazy but he never knew that i could get mad i never showed him that side of me i was sweet and nice and quiet...and i gave him everything he wanted thats why i dont understand........i wonder if he misses me but i guess not cause he broke up wit me... i think his friend had a little something to do with it...hes friend dont like me. Anyways i thought about going out with Justin this dude that Austin dont like Hes one of my ex's that still likes me....cause i know it would make him jealous....but i couldnt do that to him...i want him to be as happy as he can be. I dont want him to worry about me.....i mean if i hurt him it would kill me cause if hes hurt then im hurtin 10 times as much.I love him to much. But anyways sorry ya'll for ramblin i just had to get that out. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Well lets see it's 11:14 Am Sunday..i didnt go to church today... Well i dont think im actually going to leave the house today..i think we are going to wal-mart though.. Oh yea more about me...well i kinda have anger problems like little things piss me off.... i try to control it but...sometimes it just comes out but i cant help it sometimes it's just my personality. Like one time at lunch at school i got really really mad cause like i have 3rd lunch and they sometimes run out of the good stuff and you have to eat the other option...well we were have chicken noddle stuff and there wasnt any left and when i found out i punched the metal thing that holds the forks and yelled this is bulls**t...and my friends look at me and tell me to calm down...but it was alright i chilled out lol.....well more about me. I'm a girl haha..uhhh i have ADD. but i dont take the medicine. Thats prolly why i'm failin 5 classes...but i aint going to take it. cause i hate it it's like you have no feelings when you take it....it's like you cant be happy you cant be sad your just there...like a robot...no one will understand unless they have token that medicine.. Aderall is what it was called idk if thats how you spell it. ok ima go now bye...im hungry lol

Well ima make a journAL now cause i have nothing else to do...soooo..yea its 11:27 PM Saturday. Been at home thinking about someone. Ive been thinking about this guy named Austin...no we dont go out...we did tho :'( I think he was my first love...im 16 by the way. But anyways....yea...He broke up with me about a month ago. He broke up with me through text mesage....sayin he wasnt feeling it no more. Ppl tell me that that was sorry for him to say that but i mean its hard to be mad at someone you love. you know. ANyways..............There is only like 3 weeks of school left. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SUMMER!!!! I'm from Mississippi by the way. well thats all i'll say for now. i'll try to update regularly...but idk cause i might just be boring ppl.