things are getting crazy. matt's been acting differently. i want things to be the same...but they aren't. and whenever i mention the past to him he gets angry. we have a crazy past. i can't say anything about it... but in a later post i'll probably tell you a bit about it. but, err.. this is hard.

so. i'm listening to that song. by alter bridge. very cool. should give it a listen. so right now. i'm very tired. like really tired. i just got into a huge fight with my boyfriend matt. eh. i'm too tired to be sad. omg. this song...the dude, kennedy..his voice haunts me. this song is so powerful. i cant help but think this song kind of reminds me about me and matt. who's going to watch over me when he's gone? i dont even want to think about it.