i love starting new journals. new start, new chapter to my life. wonder where this one will end? the weekend just gone was amazing. because i spent it with the first guy who didnt pretend i didnt happen in the morning. (: im not going to see him at all this week.. i mean i miss him already. im gonna be well shitty by friday. D: and we've only been together a week. (: i was a bit dubious at first.. like im too used to the single life. him being my first boyriend and all. but now.. its amazing. he makes me feel amazing. and i can finally forget about all the shit the others put me through last winter. maybe i should start writing lyrics again? and put them on here. (: all my old lyrics were about jealousy and being unrequited.. they'd started to turn bad. the last songs i wrote were all about wrecking yourself. but i dont feel i have to do that anymore.. thanks to him. (: maybe i should write something for him.. this week is gonna be shit, but its ok cause next week is gonna be amazing (: (: