Well Helloo There .

Not quite sure, what i am going to write, or how often for that matter . I am quite bored, and very lonely, as usual . I just finished reading Twilight for the upteenth time, it's such a good book, really well written and just all around amazing. I saw the movie on friday, and that was amazing as well. Edward is veryy hot, and just amazing. The movie could have been better i guess, they cut out alot of stuff, sadly. They also combined alot of scenes which bothered me, and i didn't get to hear my favourite line, that being "you are my life now" It was veryy funny though, because everytime Edward would come onto the screne all the girls would scream (including me and my friend) The energy and the atmosphere of the movie theatre is unforgettable. Stephanie Meyer must be estactic for all her reviews and such    

Right now, I am waiting very patiently for my boy . With my luck , he is with his girlfriend right now , or at least coming home from his girlfriends. He told me he really liked me, and i just keep on hoping that we will be togther in the end, yah know? I don't know, he told me she was being a bitch, so it's not looking like it's gonna go anywhere, but all I coudl think of is, what abou twhen she stops being a bitch? Then what?" like people can be bitchy some days. Wednasday was soo perfect with him, we were just ourselves, and we talked about everything under the sun, and more. I felt soo good to be with him,and nothing else. I'm soo tired of being numb, and when i'm with him, numb doesn't happen, i don't feel it. I feel stuff, and i like how i feel with him. I hate it because i can barely go a day without him, i feel crappy all day, and lonely and sad. It shoudln't be like this. I like him soo much, and i know i shouldn't , and if i believed in love, i would probably say i loved him. But because i don't believe in love, i don't love him . I'm hoping somewhere along the line he will prove it to me . But chances are it won'tbe him.

 I'm also feeeling very terrible because it is my cousin;s birthday tomorrow, and iddn't go for dinner today to see her. I don't knwo why, i havent even been there in forever sadly . I want to go, but i just don't want to, it's weird. I guess next time I shoudl go . ahh well, feeling like crap anyways, doesn't matter .

I feel so ashamed;

it should have been easy,

I feel soo low,

and i want you to know;

i'll never let go again .