Well.....I'm a pretty strong guy however I've had my share of heartache and romantic devestation. I've been married, cheated on, divorced. I have a son that will be 8 this year that I don't get to see often enough because his mother split from me and moved states away while I was in my final week of USAF basic training, in May 2000. I've been verbally abused, used, and trampled on. Takin for granted even.....I've never let any of this stop me from becoming more or get me down too, too much. I take the experiances I've been through and learn from them. Making sure to take every precaution to not let them happen again. So this brings me to the point of this journel/blog entry. I've been single now for a year. It's been a little over a year now since she walked out and I'm starting to wonder....will I ever have my "one?" I turn to music for a lot of things....one of them is for emotive therepy, as I'm sure many others do. So many songs I find myself listening too lately just seem to remind me that I still long to have someone close to me. I thought I was fine, and maybe I am really, I don't know. I have no problem making friends. I'm not a depressed person. I laugh and smile a whole lot ya know?....but there is still something missing from my life. Here lately a lot of music has brought the fact to my face and I realize that my life is lacking the intimacy that I deeply desire and crave. Just wonder if my chances are slimming for that to cross my path. I'm getting older very quick it seems. I was married for 5 years and that just flew by....Life is too short to live it in solitude. I want to share mine with someone!!!! I'm sure it will happen one day but why not now eh? ~Rios

Death Cab For Cutie - Transatlanticism The Atlantic was born today and I'll tell you how The clouds above opened up and let it out I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere When the water filled every hole And thousands upon thousands made an ocean Making islands where no island should go Oh, no Most people were overjoyed; they took to their boats I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat The rhythm of my footsteps crossing flatlands to your door Have been silenced forevermore The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row It seems farther than ever before Oh, no I need you so much closer I need you so much closer I need you so much closer I need you so much closer I need you so much closer I need you so much closer I need you so much closer I need you so much closer I need you so much closer I need you so much closer I need you so much closer I need you so much closer So come on, come on So come on, come on So come on, come on So come on, come on