/ "no the sweetness will not be concerned with me..."/ i don't know anymore.. it feels like i'm beginning to reminisce those moments where i've been down that road again.. when i see that girl before, I feel so sorry for her... her heart got caught into something.. she's been tangled up by the illusions of the one person she learned to love.. but she will always make him special... he will always be special for her... T_T /"hate that i love you... i still do.. and i think i'll always do.."/ first love... will it stay forever? will it end? i have this song.. it's for that person... by lifehouse.. :) i was alone, living miles away i'm reading the signs, and they got nothing to say it's always the same reasons of why i shouldn't stay but i got nowhere else to go so tell me where to go from here tell me how to find another way i know that you can get me out of this if i could only make it through the day so tell me where to go from here tell me is there more to find i'm looking for the only one who can get me through these times there was a time when i'd rather run away if there was a place to hide, that's where you'd find me today but there was nowhere to run no one else to face but myself and you don't have to tell me i'm wrong so tell me where to go from here tell me how to find another way i know that you can get me out of this if i could only make it through the day so tell me where to go from here tell me is there more to find i'm looking for the only one who can get me through these times why can't i look you in the eye i know you see through me so i try to look away so tell me where to go from here tell me how to find another way i know that you can get me out of this if i could only make it through the day so tell me where to go from here tell me is there more to find i'm looking for the only one who can get me through these times

finally... !!!!!!!♫♫♫ i knew how the music ended.. it was too much to take..!! It ended just like that.. so i was just disillusioned.. disenchanted... But i never regret everything that happened.. or what I did.. I would never know if I didn't do anything... maybe I'll just be right where I was if I didn't let the person know... maybe another 2 years would add pain to the heartache.. so finally I have a reason to let go... of something that was never mine.. :'/ It is a part of life and you just have to accept it.. no matter how hard it is.. maybe there will be something far more greater than that... and if I'll just wait in faith, I'll be okay.. ^_^ Life is beautiful... !! I love my life!! :D

hearing a good music for the first time feels like the song wants to go deep into your soul... you stop for a moment and listen to what it tells you.. or if it doesn't have any lyrics, the music speaks for itself, and you know it.. it's like it understands that side of you and be with you..and then you know that there's something... magical about it..! ^^; first times are moments in our lives to be cherished.. even though that experience made you feel good or bad about yourself, you know that in any way it affected your life, it did made a difference.. and it changed you into a better person.. and there is music in every path we take.. no matter where it leads us.. you just have faith.. and in every step i take, i should not be worried.. worry signifies my lack of faith.. yeah, i believe i read that somewhere..hehe.. and when we look at a certain situation, we will always find a way not to have it or not to be with it... it's just..at some point, we must learn how not to think about it that way and just give our hearts what we deserve..

sometimes, i thought that my life has no meaning at all.. there was silence... but one day, someone told me to listen closely... there's music in it.. it reminds me that life goes on even though that music has to end sometimes.. that's not a reason not to enjoy it..