tuesday 28th july 09 went to see the proposal today. was hilarious. love ryan reynolds. really excited for naomi's birthday on friday! its gay pride on saturday too!! :) saturday 1st august 09 naomi's party was sooo good!! dean and cummings got on really well. john, lynsey, sean-paul, cummings and i ended up staying in sean-paul's house. went to gay pride today. the rain was a bitve a downer though. and there weren't as many floats this year as there are every other year. cummings wore my tshirt that says "i need a kiss now" on it. he looked like a gay holiday rep. haha! tuesday 4th august 09 cummings and i have been going out a month today :) i met him after tech then we went to his house, watched dvds and got an indian takeaway. today went so fast :( but i get to see him tomorrow. i really like him...but im just a bit worried that i like him more than he likes me. even though i know he really likes me. oh well, im having a wee sleepover with my sister in her room tonight. its good to spend time with her. pierce had a heart attack today. scary stuff. thursday 6th august 09 marcus, brendan, monk, cummings and i went to helens bay beach and bangor today. was really good to be away from the park. i saw colette, tommy and sophie in bangor. i couldnt believe it. they probably followed me down! found out that the top of one of pierces lungs collapsed the other day. if its not reinflated by tomorrow hes to go in for surgery. fingers crossed hes okay. friday 7th august 09 cummings and i went shopping today cuz he got paid £120. he bought 2 pairs of jeans, a belt/bottle opener, 2 tshirts and a shirt. lovely lovely :) after we went home and got changed we went to his mate gavins house for a wee drink. so boring. the wee lad never spoke! we pranked fearghal. that was pretty funny. and cummings got a taco chip from browns (susies) was great! because it was so shit we left early and went to my house. we had a really deep conversation which lasted 3 hours. was really good. i feel so close to cummings now :) pierces hospital appointment went well. was all inflated :) sunday 9th august 09 went into town yesterday and got loafers and new jeans :D stayed in karls last night. there was a party on. was quite good :) wrecked now though! john and clodaghs sister siobhan are going out. found that quite strange!

monday 6th july 09 today was quite boring. didnt do much. last night pierce asked annette out and she said yes. how cute. also, sp got the shit beat outta him by a guy with a hurley stick! cummings is comin to my house tomorrow :) tuesday 7th july 09 cummings came down today. we watched marci x then waiting then a few friends eps. we then went to lenadoon. pierce pulled me and asked if anything had happened and i told him no. then pierce went on a walk with cummings then cummings asked me to speak to him and then he asked me out :) wednesday 8th july 09 didnt do much today. had to leave my dad's laptop to johns to fix then i dyed tashas hair. she and paddy broke up so i told her i'd go to her caravan for a few days with her. thursday 9th july 09 had to go fundraising today. i think we made a good load of money like. the taxi man on the way there said that i look like someone who goes to g8 protests wrecking stuff, burns buses and stabs policemen lmao! i then met cummings, tasha and his mates and had a drink then went to a really shit party. wednesday 22nd july. havent written in a while. things are going well with cummings :) im really enjoying being with him. annette and jess are going through a little thing atm. pierce doesnt like jess and now we're all gettin the impression that annette isnt comin to see jess cus of pierce which isnt right. you dont choose your bf over your mates.

tuesday 30th june 09 got up and went into town with hackett cus he'd an opticians appointment and we wanted to buy hair dye. i dyed my hair turquoise, ash did hers pink and purple and the silver didnt work on hacketts hair so its blonde. it really suits him though. i need money for drink on friday fs. i've only £4.16 and i need £7 saturday 4th july 09 went to that gig last night and me, cummings, karl and connor stayed in sp's. cummings got kicked out of the gig for pissing on connor and then connor wasn't allowed back in so we all went to the park. the whole night and this morning cummings was holding my hand but nothing else happened :( just gotta move slowly, i guess. sp lit a fire and tried to cook sausages. was so funny. karl scared the shit outta me. he got so drunk he actually went blind and couldnt breathe. i had to stand outside cus i was shittin it!

sunday 28th june 09 havent spoken to my mum all day =) went to lenadoon for a bit today. was so shit. my da's givin me £40 for newcastle tomorrow. so excited! monday 29th june 09 went to newcastle today. had to get up really early and only got 2 hours sleep but it was worth it. was amazing. we went to the beach, built sandcastles, buried brendan in the sand, went to the amusements, everything! brendan won a sonic teddy with a tenner on it. he was soo happy! went to lenadoon after. hackett got his hair cut. its really short. i didnt think he'd suit it but its really nice. mums drinking again. she came into my room there crying and she said she was sorry for the other night and kissed my cheek. i told her that i wasnt gonna speak to her til she stopped drinking and she told me that she doesnt feel well and thats why she drinks. if you dont feel well, why drink yourself into oblivion? get help. i told her i didnt wanna talk to her and she slurred "fuck ye then!" and slammed the door.

saturday 27th june 09 went into town. was so boring. then went to lenadoon which, again, was boring. monk, hackett and marcus sandwiched me inbetween them all and wouldn't let me out so i bit hackett's neck and now it looks like a hickey haha. got in and my mum was drinking. i hate her behavious when shes drinking so i decided to tell her how i feel. she didn't take it too well. its now 2:41am and shes in the living room blasting music, drinking more and slabbering about me and my dad to herself. talking to herself! she sounds like an old hag. putting on this stupid voice. theres seriously something wrong with her. she needs to stop drinking. she owes me £500 too. but its her. all she thinks about is money. theres no way im getting it back. its now 3:24am and i can hear her banging something and her heavy breathing or crying or something. im actually terrified to go to sleep in case she tries to suffocate me or....stab me or something. that cant be right.

tuesday 23rd june 09 went to lenadoon today for dee's birthday. was great fun. dean ended up making that wee melter rachel drink his piss cus she thought it was cider lol. sean-paul thought he'd be funny and save cummings' number in my phone then he rang him and told him to give me a text later. we've been texting all night =D friday 26th june 09 on wednesday, myself, brendan, dee, fearghal, marcus, annette, naomi and hackett when to musgrave park. was brilliant. it was really good being away from lenadoon. michael jackson died yesterday. i still can't believe it. i'm in shock. i cried a little bit. i can't believe all these people making stupid jokes and he's just died. got my first filling yesterday :(

sunday 21st june 09 went into town yesterday and there was an anti-racism thing at city hall. saw duke special; standing next to us. me, paddy, tasha and aoife went to a casting thing to be an extra in natalie portman's new movie. we went to aoife's and she made us the nicest pasta ever with quorn mince. we then headed to a guy from tasha's tech class's party in finaghy. i should never be allowed vodka. i got off with someone called mckenna cus his mate asked me to. then tasha told me to go and talk to cummings and we ended up kissing. i boked twice haha and he walked me home. he seemed really dead on. dunno if i'll see him again... we'll see...

monday 15th june 09 i dyed pierce's hair on friday. pink and blue. i was meant to meet him at 11 but he didn't bloody wake up until quarter to 4! on saturday, i headed into town then had a wee drink in brendan's, went to sp's for a bit and jess stayed in mine. had a lazy sunday then today i dandered to kfc with brendan then went to lenadoon. it was shit so i just headed home early. tuesday 16th june 09 had a really lazy day today. didn't leave the house. there's not a lot to do now that it's summer! i don't even have any plans for tomorrow...

thursday 11th june 09 i had my last exam today - went teribly. i'll be surprised if i get a D haha. on the other hand, summer's finally here! i dyed my hair pink again and everyone loved it. pierce is lookin me to go into town with him tomorrow then dye his hair. i'm to call for him at 11 but knowing him he won't be bloody up!

sunday 7th june 09 i brought eva into town with me and brendan yesterday. i bought her build-a-bear pyjamas, socks and pants and took her to kfc. she really enjoyed herself. was better than her sitting in the house all day doing nothng. i bought my pink hair dye for thursday =D today i'd to go to b&q with jessica to do a collection for help the aged. it was freezing and we had to wear help the aged t-shirts. jessica was talking to brendan and found out gossip for me! apparently pierce got off with that lesbian that he's been looking into AND *big gossip* hackett got off with hollie and........MARCUS! AND HACKETT INITIATED IT! i couldnt believe it when jess told me!