it's 12:38pm. everyone's back to school today apart from me. speaking of which, i have ict coursework and spanish to be doing =/ but i really couldn't be bothered. i'm actually looking forward to going back, y'know, minus the work. i haven't seen most of my friends during the easter holidays and i have so much gossip to tell people :] EDIT: he invited me his house tonight because he wanted to watch the rest of my skins dvd so i said yes and brought it up and watched it with him from about 6pm til 9pm. then... we had sex. i dunno what i was thinking. i love being with him but we went out before and that didn't work. now it's just casual sex and i like him, i like spending time with him but i don't think anything's ever gonna happen again regardless of whether i want it to or not. i could go on but if i was to write about everything that's ever happened between us i'd be here for days. so i'll leave it at this. i'm so happy (:

eugh, today was awful. i woke up really late due to these clocks being put forward an hour. i spent most of my day on the computer. i had a heart-to-heart with natasha about how i feel about him. it really wasn't a good idea. she had me in tears and was telling me exactly what i didn't wanna hear. then my mum came in and she made me tell her what was wrong. now she's being all nice to me and calling him everything. i spoke to him on msn. just about general stuff and we had a really nice conversation. i hate how much i like him. i don't even know how i feel, my head's fucked up. i'm not gonna tell him though. he's currently a "friend with benefits". i'd rather have that than have him not wanting to talk to me at all. anyway, i'm off to bed.

i've always wanted somewhere where i can blog and no-one will know me. saying that, i probably won't stick to this. anyway, just a quiz to start this journal up. Song #1: Brand New - Untitled 01. Your favorite lyric from this song: and it burned out the whole spectrum as if you were everything. Does this song have any bad memories attached? no. What genre is this? rock - says their myspace. Song #2: Bloc Party - Positive Tension. What's the last line of this song? play it cool. Have you ever seen this artist live? naw. Who does this song make you think of? no-one actually. Number 3: Big D & The Kids Table - Little Bitch. What's the first line of this song? if you ever hear a noise in the night, your body starts to sweat, it shakes and shivers with fright. Where did you first hear this song? i found out they'd done a cover of it on songmeanings so i downloaded it. How about the first time you heard the artist? myspace bulletin made me download them. Song #4: Ross Copperman - Found You. Which friend could this be a theme tune for and why? Him. Write down the chorus: when it feels like its love all the stars lift you up. well i'll place you high above on top of the world. and you know it must be right 'cause its burning up inside.i can feel it in your eyes i want you to know i'm just glad that i found you. Why do you like this song? because it's beautiful with really meaningful lyrics. Song #5: Crass - Do They Owe Us A Living? What kind of film would you choose this as the theme for? oh god, i don't know. Who introduced you to this artist? dean. Best part of this song: the chorus. Song #6: The Academy Is... - Neighbors. The fourth line reads: and we're tossing up a strong vibe. How long is this song? 3:11. Is it one of your favourites? it's good like. Song #7: Bright Eyes - Exaltation On a Cool Kitchen Floor. How long have you been listening to this artist? a while now. What's the cover look like on the album this came from? Blue patterned background. Windmill in the middle. What's this song about? Being with a girl he likes. Has your favourite song come up? nope.