Its been forever since I posted something. Well, my life is starting to look up. I found someone. I love her and she loves me! I couldn't be happier. I still work at the same crappy supermarket, but as long as I have her, nothing else matters.

I have been thinking a lot lately about how the human mind works, more particularly the minds of people who are isolated for long periods of time, or have gone insane, and begin to see things that aren't really there. I don't know why but I find it fascinating. Some where along the lines the imagination interfears with information coming from the eyes to the brain. If a sane person or someone who isn't 'broken' can do this just by being isolated, then perhaps this ability can be controlled to some extent. I find it hard to imagine having an entire conversation with a person or creature that isn't really there, mostly because I never had an imaginary friend as I have almost always been surrounded by others. Perhaps I am thinking too much, I live in Louisiana, such thoughts are useless here. But if such an ability could be harnessed at will, movies and video games would be useless. It would be better than VR, but it would have the same drawbacks as VR like the threat of the person loosing their grip on reality, but the potential would be great, imagine having someone or something following you around acting as a sort of muse. A being that could give you information that is locked away in your subconcious. I believe that in everyone there are multiple people with different traits and personalities a normal person has all these people in them linked in someway while a person who has multiple personalities has all their personas severed from one another. If we could see and speak with these people in all of us then we would always know what options we have in situations. We could be inspired to try harder or led down a good and honorable path, but yet again there is a risk. I think that we all have relatively the same people in us even though they may go by different names or have different faces, they all have the same traits intellegance, honor, anger, courage, adventurous, loyalty, stealthy, corruption and in each of use these traits have different strengths. As for me, I think my traits have strength in this order of strongest to weakest: honor, loyalty, adventurous, intellegance, stealthy, courage, anger, corruption. Now for me being able to chat with my 'traits' could prove to be a very good thing, but for someone who has strong anger and corruption traits...well, there's your murderers so for them to be able to speak with another that is purely of that trait could be disasterous. Now the intellegance, anger, and stealthy trait is not necassasarilly a good or bad thing. Intellegance can be used for good or evil, anger can drive someone to do something bad or can insire them to try harder or do something else, stealthy refers to how a person moves and their prefered surroundings, I have accidentally snuck up behind people just by walking normally, and I enjoy quiet areas, these are the dependant traits, named so because how they are used is determined by the align. traits. Corruption refers to the darker side in all of us whether it be simply putting down on others, start fights, anything that could be considered bad. We all have the corruption trait in us to some degree. The honor trait is our personal standards, if your a person like me that has a strong faith in honor, then you hold yourself to a higher standard than most people, this is because you have a strong honor trait. Loyalty is self explainitory as is adventerous and courage. Corruption, honor, and loyalty are the align. traits, they dictate if you are a good, bad, or something in the middle. The rest are the dependant traits that show what you are in greater detail. But know I'm off topic....Yeah this is now my official Journal for my cool thoughts

Hmm...much has changed. I have quit my job at Subway and started working at a local grocery store. Not much of a step up, still minimum wage with little chance of getting a raise. But I had it with Subway. Here is the story, I was one of the first people who got hired when it first opened up. three months later our manager got fired by the big-wigs and a new manager got hired, eventually that ass desides to stop giving me hours to work. Of course I can't make money if I don't have any hours to work, so I find another job as quickly as I can and then return to him, throw my uniform in his face and said, "I quit you son-of-a-bitch!" Later I visit the night shift only to find out that the manager is doing a very shitty job (at least according to the employees.) Although I felt sorry for them, it made me feel good inside to have that piece of information. Random Information: I'm not an evil or hateful person, but I do believe in some form of 'an eye for an eye'

Ha!!! It's been a while since my last entry. Oh well, I can't wait for tomorrow! Why, you may be asking. Well, I am supposed to be getting my new blade in, and judging from the pictures I have seen, it looks awesome. What would I want with a blade? What fucking good is a rocker without a few swords and knives laying around in his room? Besides, I am a collecter. Of the many faces that I wear (and there are many) a swordsman is just one of the many that I wear. Random Thought of the Day Err...Night! I bet Link (from Legend of Zelda) could beat Tidus' (from Final Fantasy X) ass, but then again, I bet Cloud (from Final Fantasy VII) could beat them both at the same time!!!

Today I visited my first music store. Why I never visited one before I have no idea. But anyway, I bought three CDs, the first being my favorite of the three. Killswitch Engage; As Daylight Dies. I never heard much from them in the past but most of what I have heard, I liked. I was very happy with it. the other two where Trapt and Shadows Fall; Seeking the Way. The Shadows Fall CD was ok but a little to screamy for my tast. The Trapt CD on the other hand flat out sucked, there was a few songs that was ok but a lot of it was way too light rock to keep my attention. Great, I just remembered I have to go to work tomorrow. I quickly learned that it is nothing special, just a borefest, although the people I work with are alright. Random thought of the day: Umm, wow I ran out of those fast!!!

Today I get to actually work at my job. I finished the training and that was nerve racking enough! To make matters worse today is opening day, so it is probably going to be flooded with people when I get there (Why did I choose to work for Subway?!?!) Oh well, I am still looking forward to it. Random thought of the day: Is it possible to corner someone in a round room?

Just joined up today and added my top favorite bands to my favorites. I will definitely add more later, but I am about to fall asleep as we speak. Random thought of the day: Never get into an argument with a drunk. The reason being is that even if you win, he/she will be too wasted to realize they had lost.