At least i'm aware of it. i've been saying 'sweet' a lot lately it's really annoying... but i have no idea what describing words i used to say now! hardcore? cool? awesome? um. the battle is over the victory won all thats left to decide who's side are you on?

and now they're pulling me down. It's ok. I keep telling myself that. I don't really have much left to say. I guess that's what you get when all you can do is blurt out your secrets to the nearest pair of ears. wanna know another one? I can never tell whether i'm trying to make people happy for my benefit or for theirs. I don't understand myself at all lucky he does.. i just have to hope that somewhere inside me i'm alright but hey he made me so i must be =] I've found so much peace and fulfillment it's a gentle kind of amazing. i wish you knew Another secret: religion freaks me out, even my own. I keep getting told it's not religion, but then why do they all go about their repetitive meaningless tasks thinking it means something? Does it mean anything to them? don't say it's too early baby i don't wanna waste the day when we've everything on our side and nothing in our way filling my sentences with 'baby's and 'honey's doesn't change anything like i thought it would. But hey, we're still smiling, and that's all i really want. i could stay in your arms all year I have a crazy idea for you do something. anything. but something. and do it now.

get over yourselves! you don't know these people. that is all. [just so you know, you're VERY selfish, i think it's something you should work on]

I'm bored Yet have so much to do... i think the thing is i want to keep listening to music but i have nothing to do while i listen but i can't go play piano or anything GOSH. SIGHS these holidays went soooo fast not fair. my parents are away =]=]=]=] my darling sisters left the place a mess though and aren't staying here this weekend so i'm left living in their filth.. lovely. i love my sisters. oh well i might clean it up so it's livable.. cuz i'm such a gem... and then dance around to the ting tings (love them) hmm it's quite cold So pretty much i'm being really bad today i got up at like 1 and then watched home alone 4 and then had a shower and then came on here when really what i'd planned to do was get up at like 10 and actually do piano practice and theory and clean and stuff but whatever its holidays they call me hell they call me stacey they call me her they call me jane thats not my name thats not my name thats not my name thats not my.. name they call me 'quiet girl' but i'm a riot:) BAM they have THE CUTEST (well almost) tops and hoodies at overboard right now and it sucks because i have no money and i have plenty of clothes so i have no reason to buy them!!! DAMMIT oh well i'll get over it i guess when i'm 20 it won't matter whether i had the clothes i wanted now... thats what i think whenever i look back on being 10 WELL it's been fun but i best be off TTFN!! i

I think people can change. and all you have to do is keep looking it's always going to take longer than you would like but it will be worth it i promise. its the only thing i know for sure on a side note... there are lots of angry people on here.

Feel something for me? I haven't got all the answers but i'm doing the best i can to be honest to be fair to be desperate... i'm not going to give up just because i don't get it right the first time. I will never get it all right but i'm hoping to get closer each day i spend with you each moment i spend living the way i was called to live. It's going to be ok,

There is life There is hope There is good Everything you could ever need will be found But it's not in you. So start looking elsewhere. [it kills me to see you like this, but i can't give you all the answers]

how well retail therapy works! :D new music new clothes new jewellry i feel like a new person? not really i just feel better =] i have the cutest robot earrings the best things ever and the only earrings i've ever bought that are actually worth $10... so yeah stupid i know what would you say? somehow here is gone.. i'm bored of all my music i need some new RnB... or anything good to dance to i have to get up EARLY tomorrow like 9 oclock Gah its holidays -_- thank god.

But i'm working on it. Abandoned? Not really. Just feeling like it more than you could understand. And if i say your to blame you can guarantee it's my fault I'm just looking for a way out Aren't we all? Except the few that know the only real way to live is to find a way in But as soon as you realise you're stuck on the outside. And there's no going back. I keep repeating myself line by line still wanting the same things further running out of time. I'm yet to be defined. I still remain unspoken Staring at these doors Why is the wrong one always open?