NOT so lets see. my mothers life is pathetic. she takes her sorry little ass whole life out on me, because im actually happy for once which apparently isnt allowed. she starts bitching and screaming about how i dont respect her and all this other shit so i go upstairs and close the door. and i started hyperventillating. a panic attack i think. and it was rly rly rly scary. i cud barely breathe for 20 min. and i'd be damned if i went in to go get her help. if anything i'd go in just to rub it in her face. that fucking bitch is jsut asking for me to kill her. shes begging for it. legit. i cant take it anymore i just cant take it

wellllll its been a while soo yeah basically pretty much cuz thats how we roll yeah. so i guess chinese food is funny...haha so yeah thats it pCe

im writing in this one again. idc abotu the other one. so how come this always happens? everytime school starts, i get depressed. not just like "oh i feel sad" but like "i dont wanna do anything, talk to anyone, go anywhere..." kind of depressed? and its usually triggered by someone. used to be my mom, but this its not her, its actually ben. hes fucking jelous! of dan! come one! i mean i know every one has insecurites, some more than others, but for him to be jelous, i dont get. i love him. not dan. im just friends with dan. thats all. nothing else. i mean, for christs sake! hes going out with one of my best friends! and its not like bens jelous of eric, whom i also tell everything. its just dan... like yesterday. i waited for him outside his classroom. he didnt come. so dan and i kept walking, then poof! there he is. dan says he glared at him. i thot dan and ben were friends. i guess guys can be just as petty as girls sometimes....